"you are what you create."

random musings of the fickle minded

2012-01-20T14:15:00.003+08:00

1. I feel so resentful of my feminism whenever I get cramps.
2. I have an interview coming in 2 hours' time.
3. Followed by a dental appointment.
4. I really just want to sleep and sleep and sleep, with my bolster and pillow stranded on that tiny island known as my bed.
5. Chinese new year's coming! The part I'm most excited about is wearing my new clothes (yeah, I know right).
6. It never rains but pours (literally).
7. Wondering how unglam I will look by the time I reach SMU in the rain.
8. Wondering how long the rain will last.
9. Just ordered 4 bracelets and 3 necklaces. $20 gone.
10. I'm a shopaholic.
11. I need to come up with a savings plan before I deplete all my money.
12. Never did figure out why the office is so cold.
13. Very very tempted to get a cushion and blanket in the office NOW.
14. Time to go for my interview. Oh goodness.

taiwan!

2012-01-07T06:13:00.002+08:00

A much happier post compared to the previous one. At the airport waiting for our flight and I am using the free internet here (11 minutes left) to type a happy post ^^

Work's been kind to me so far even though I'm going to die when I go back (2 weeks' worth of clutter to finish in one week... as if I can be THAT fast.) Really really love my colleagues :)

Going to meet up with D when I'm back too... Another museum trip and dinner! (And now I'm working so I can treat her back ^^)

Mm my luggage is only 2/3 full plus I'm going to be throwing out a lot of things so hopefully I don't go too mad with the shopping there. Lots of things to buy and I'm afraid of buying too much (and hence waste money) or too little (and I'll feel so regretful that I didn't buy when I have the chance to). So going to use my brain a lot over there.

Am praying that I won't fall sick there and that I can adjust to the food et cetera...

And if you're reading this, please tell me if you have an unwanted scientific calculator you're willing to give for free because I need it.

I sound so incoherent but I'm going back to my comfortable seat and sleep for a while before going on board. Have a good week ahead everyone!

thanksgiving

2011-12-24T23:27:00.001+08:00

hard to be thankful when your heart is full of sadness.

but really, i'm thankful for god's gift to men. thank you for giving the world your son so that we may all be saved.

2011-12-24T19:20:00.000+08:00

“His hatred was its own creature; it rose and burned out, reappeared of its own accord, and in her he sought only its justification, its perfection.”
— Kiran Desai, ‘The Inheritance of Loss’

Guess the same could be said about misery and loneliness.

tripping

2011-12-09T20:51:00.003+08:00

Day 1 - the take off

Woke up at 5, rushed to the airport, got on the plane with the real cramped seat, enjoy the clouds view, touched down, meet aunt, went aunt's house, breakfast (bak kut teh), slacked around, set off to wholesale building in KL (Kenanga Wholesale City), SHOPPING.

My loots:
- 2 sleeveless cotton dresses, 1 light grey, 1 dark grey
- 1 pair of long pants
- 1 black chiffon dress
- 1 blue + black and white striped dress top (too short to be a real dress that's why)
- 1 black pair of shorts
- 1 brown pair of pants that reaches the knees (bermudas? but a skinny pair of bermudas)
- 4 different coloured dress of the same design (cause it's so much more a better deal)

Just some tips on shopping at wholesale places:
- most shops require you to buy a minimum number of pieces of the same design (some says 3 some says 6). usually if it's free sized, like dresses and all that, you have to buy all the colours. otherwise, it's all the sizes. if you choose not too, they will sell the clothes to you at retail prices which most of the time is double that of the wholesale price.
- don't ever go there on a sunday if you intend to buy a lot a lot of things, since half the shops in that complex is closed. also, the complex we visited is only the newly built building, and there are a lot more wholesale retailers in the form of shop houses around the area (by area i really meant the entireeeeeeee area, like the entire simei or bigger).

Went for dinner with my 3rd aunt's family. It's seafood and it's alright, but nothing special. As usual, I eat a lot whenever I'm there because the food is cheaper and so much better than what I eat in Singapore (food court, takeaways, yeah whatever).

Day 2 - more food

Woke up, went to eat bak kut teh (always so much nicer than those I find in SG, it's just different) and they served some kuey that tastes like chewy eggwhite? I think they call it egg kuey, I don't know. Then went to Jusco (a shopping mall that is like a bigger version of Isetan in Malaysia) and mom got her stuff, I got myself a suit and my sister got a few tees. Not sure what I need a suit for since I pretty much gave up on scholarship interviews on a whole (they only served to make me more confused about what I want to do in life, which goes to show I actually don't know what I want to study in uni since I'm so easily swayed) and I just hope they don't specify black suits in university if I ever need one because mine's grey...

Lunch/dinner was late and I had char kuayteow that's apparently famous in my grandma's hometown (and it was delicious, even though I sort of doubt the hygiene standard). Mom went out to buy some clothes (she's been nagging us rotten because we bought lots of clothes the previous day and she only got a knitted top and a pair of long pants). Visited the night market with my uncle and cousins and bought a black tube to go with all the low chested dresses. Ate fried chicken and squid and went to pizza hut to order 2 hawaiian pizzas with mushroom soups. I ATE 3 SLICES! *fattening* Then went back to aunt's house and sleep.

Day 3 - the transformation

Woke up bright and early and went for a facial (with its super awful painful blackhead removal thing). Then went to the salon to get a hair dye. (and by then it's already 6). Went to the newly developed area near my grandma's place (it's like marina bay sands) for another round of seafood dinner and visited the Lover's Bridge (which is so dark you can't see anything) to meet my aunt's friend. Walked around the Golden Coast area (resort + seafront pub). Went home, sleep.

Day 4 - A'FAMOUSA!

Travelled to A'Famousa and checked in our villa before visiting the water parks. Lotsa fun playing with the slides (though climbing the stairs barefooted without glasses is horrible). Went to the Cowboy Town for a 4D show (it's kinda exciting) and some other show that is similar to Chingay. There are fire breathers, lots of animals (elephants, horses, chickens, mice, camels and many many more) and fireworks!

Day 5 - animals

Went to the Safari (it's like a zoo) and watched the multi animal show (featuring otters that can do math problems, throw rubbish, and a chimpanzee, and cats! and dogs and a lot more) followed by the bird show (parrot drawings! parrot doing math! parrot playing basketball! and I only recognise the parrot, sadly). Sat on an elephant and visited the monkey island (fed the monkey some fresh leaves too) before going for another cowboy show (with gunshots and jumping off the building and explosions in the rain... exciting stuff). Went into Melecca for some Nyonya food before heading back home.

Day 6 - going home

Went for another round of bak kut teh (all the food) before rushing back to aunt's home to pack and go to the airport. And that concludes my trip.

look forward

2011-11-30T18:49:00.002+08:00

Bad day today. Flopped interview, bleeding blisters and cuts...
And the good things: bought 3 rings, bought magnets (in the wrong amount) and made a paper christmas tree.
http://www.bloomize.com/fold-cut-a-christmas-tree-with-a-star-topper/

to the summit

2011-11-25T22:56:00.002+08:00

Happy girl lazy to put up nice photos ^^

Enjoying life the past few days... Once after H3 everything was like 'OH YEAH LET'S GO PLAY' :) Even though the paper was horrible :/

Went out with Sheryl on Thursday! Got some craft stuff (going back to get them again after paper on Thursday or something), 2 dresses from bugis street and some food. I HATED MY LUNCH. Waste of money and tummy space haha. Came back with a bad headache and aching feet (but it was fun).

Went to Bookfest@Suntec today and got myself 7 books (oh yes I'm so happy now). Gonna have a great time lazing around at home reading them (reminds me of reading my old half-read books :/ I'm horrible) and drinking green tea.

Waiting for my game to finish downloading hahaha :)

there is no language for what we've seen

2011-11-19T19:43:00.001+08:00

MUST. STUDY. TONIGHT.

3 hours of grocery shopping (more like walking around looking for office wear as well), 2 hours of nap and 2 hours of dinner + games.

Gonna go study my graphs now.

4 more days.

we'll find ourselves on the safest ledge

2011-11-17T14:45:00.002+08:00

Images from weatheredtulip@tumblr.

"Could you be happy to fall like a stone

If you'd land right here safe in my arms?

It's fine, lock all your doors through the night

Keep it all right here, safe in my arms"

- On The Safest Ledge, Copeland

A cheer-me-up post.

Things to look forward to after 'A' levels (1 Dec)

Malaysia trip

Taiwan trip

Christmas job with Xinwei and Zoe

CNY job (?)

Watch Prince of Egypt, Little Mermaid, Beauty and the Beast, Cinderella

Watch Glee

Watch as much Taiwan variety show on MioTV as I like

Learn up lyrics of Copeland/Sleeping At Last songs

Bugis street shopping

Cooking lessons

Tumblring away

Swimming

Play as many escape games as I like

Read!

JOIN BACK CHURCH CHOIR :D

Play the piano

[SIDENOTE] The dress I love so much from alluringarray is sold out! They no long have it :( What's this.

Paint my nails

PACK MY TABLE

Oh yes, things to look forward to indeed.

如果你爱我，你会来找我

2011-11-16T21:08:00.002+08:00

Images from sundaeonsunday@tumblr.

Feel like typing centralised today. Spammed lots of images because 1) my blog's been bare for so long and 2) her tumblr is full of awesomeness. Would have continued if not for the 5 photos at one go limit and the fact that I'm simply lazy.

The past 2 days have been a lot of fluctuating emotions. Not exactly dramatic, more like minor tremors. And it all stems from the one word EXAMINATIONS. Was so despaired at the state of my econs yesterday when I realised I will never ever finish reading the notes in time (and I was right). But cheered up after mom came back from the supermarket with A LOT OF FOOD. Even though I'm gaining weight and all (studying always makes me hungry) but who can resist caramel popcorn? And chocolate? And cheezels? My mom knows what would cheer me up indeed.

And today was econs and chem paper. Hopefully I did okay. Don't know if it's a false sense of security or I'm just plain muddled. So don't really know how the paper was (not easy/not difficult/not okay see I don't know). But cheered up when I see my sister bought back 12 donuts from J.Co. Been whining about them since forever (and now that I'm eating them it does seem very sweet and scary. Like, diabetic scary). But then she bought lots of things back which made me feel all sad because I WANT TO GO SHOPPING TOO :( And it seems like she spent a really nice day out (not that I'm resentful or anything) but I REALLY REALLY WANT TO GO OUT TOO :( :(

THANK GOODNESS FOR BLOGGER AUTOSAVE. My browser suddenly restarted everything and a blank page was facing me. Scared me for a moment.

Off to study bio after procrasting for like oh, 4 hours or so. Must tell myself it's the last few times I'm going to study this hard anyway (until uni starts).

YOU CAN DO IT!

sleeping at last

2011-11-14T21:20:00.002+08:00

There is no language for what we've seen,
Only the sweetness that bends us to our knees,
And all of these fumbling words
To explain what it means,
But our hearts were buried deep in the sand
-'Side By Side', Sleeping At Last
Today: did nothing.

Tomorrow: wake up at 7, shower, eat breakfast, pack bag, finish AP notes, go to bugis, talk coherently during interview, come home, lunch, read tuition notes, dinner, flip through econs prelim 2010/2011, pack bag, sleep.

Wednesday: conquer econs AND chem.

My heart is thudding so loud and my stomach is feeling empty.

It'll be over soon.

more favourite songs

2011-11-12T18:21:00.002+08:00

Always loved Eason Chan. Some of my favourite songs below!

- 婚禮的祝福
- 不要說話
- 淘汰
- 富士山下

Obviously there are so many more but these are the ones that I haven't heard in a LONG while and they are not in my phone, more's the pity.

Wasted my day reading random girly books my sister borrowed from the library and watching TV. Not good at all.

Off to shower and hit the books. Or should I say, stacks of notes.

part of that world

2011-11-07T14:41:00.003+08:00

A little motivational post for myself :)

To do this week:

- Read Bio essay answers again

- Skim through organic chem again

- Skim through chem notes

- Read GP snippets!

- Read essay outlines

- Look through comprehension passages

- Learn differentiation/integration!

- Read through correlation and sampling notes

- Remember what is p-value and significant value

- Read up on tourism!

- NO BLABBERING THIS FRIDAY

And since I believe rewarding should be proportional to the amount of work done, this is the amount of enjoyable things I shall do in return for this week's work!

- Buy shoes

- Watch The Little Mermaid

- Watch Prince of Egypt

- Update Tumblr queue

The full, comprehensive list will come... After I'm done with all these.

you'd break your neck to keep your chin up

2011-11-01T19:08:00.003+08:00

Images from olasmarinas@tumblr.

Almost confirmed the trip to Taiwan :D At least I played my part!

Brain all tired out. Going to sleep early. And checking out airplane food (I sound like a seasoned traveller what's this).

tell me i'm a wreck

2011-10-29T12:14:00.003+08:00

Images from sundaeonsunday@tumblr.

2 favourite new songs introduced by Sheryl!

Copeland-Chin Up and Every Avenue-Tell Me I'm A Wreck

Excited for TW trip! All the planning and researching for hotels/flights will be so worth it when I get to drink all the bubble tea I want and shop to my heart's desire :)

But back to reality. 10 more days to 'A's (including today) and I'm still hopelessly careless in my math and my chem side of the brain is an empty vault. Not to mention my bio is also a goner given how my brain leaks like a sieve (or has pores so small the bio information didn't go in at all) because I totally forgot everything I supposedly 'studied'. And I spent days on that few chapters. To top all that off? All on the first week.

Going to buck up and get my act together. If not now, when?

Scrolling through old posts. Laughing at the good old days. And marveling at how much more hardworking I was in the past.

Been slacking the past 2 hours away on the computer. Apparently reading the Bio slides I made before Prelims is not effective at all.

Well well. Math Paper 2 here I come.

countdown

2011-10-27T19:51:00.001+08:00

11 more days to 'A' levels! Not prepared but not worried. Which in itself is kind of worrying.

I'm going to get this trade thing down tonight oh yeah.

explosive

2011-10-25T20:09:00.002+08:00

Images from revolvers@tumblr.

Short short update before I go study econs/bio.

Current new favourite videos (mostly instrumental):

- The Piano Guys: Michael Meets Mozart / Rolling In The Deep / Desert Symphony

- Bond: Explosive

- Megan & Liz: Are You Happy Now?

- The Corrs: What Can I Do

- Dido: White Flag

And revisiting old favourites:

- Julia Sheer: Sparks Fly / You Will Never Be / Better With You

- Megan & Liz: Run Away / Rest Of You / Last Kiss

- Charice: All By Myself / As Long As You're There

- Mulan: I'll Make A Man Out Of You / A Girl Worth Fighting For

- Tarzan: For The First Time

Lovely music and not so lovely pileS of work waiting for me to complete.

Can't wait for tuition tomorrow :)

brain drain

2011-10-10T20:31:00.002+08:00

Images from my tumblr.

Tiring day today. Because I actually 'did' productive work till 5. Gp essay + learning econs from Shuxuan (thanks!). Been slacking ever since. Shall memorise Shuxuan's many-words-of-wisdom today and do 1 Bio paper 1. Depressing can.

Math mock paper tomorrow. Hope I don't flop too badly. Will come back and do chem p1 or something.

AND I WANTED TO WATCH TV AT 9. WHAT WAS I DOING -.-

Anyway I wanted to leave an ask on Megan and Liz's tumblr! AND JUST WHEN I CLICKED ASK, it died on me -.- Tumblr :((

as long as you're there

2011-10-01T15:20:00.003+08:00

Images from wildhearts@tumblr.

Many gorgeous pictures to compensate for the lack of activity here.

Well obviously exams are over, got back 4 papers yesterday... Didn't do as badly as expected (which is good I suppose), but I reserve judgment till I get back the other 2 on Monday.

Played real hard the past few days, here are some of my favourite YouTube videos/songs:

- "As Long As You're There" by Charice

- "All By Myself" by Charice (the song starts about 0:55)

- "Listen" by Charice and by Melanie Amaro

- "Stereo Hearts" by Megan and Liz

- "A Bird's Song" by Ingrid Michaelson

Do check out Megan and Liz! They are awesomely cute and pretty~ And Charice is just awesome of course.

Here are some website I've been browsing the past few days too (all clothes though):

- Pinkykiki (possibly my favourite)

- Alluring Array (one of the best in Singapore, in my opinion)

- Causeway Mall

Don't really like the rest though.

Went shopping with mom today! She went mad and bought 2 pairs of shoes at one go. This random lady came talking to her because they were checking out the same display and we ended up chatting quite a bit. She's really friendly and looks so young for her age (no kidding). Then went to get my contact lenses (happy girl now!) and grocery shopping. Bought quite a bit of ice cream (because it's always the first thing to run out at home), oatmeal cookies (which only I eat), chocolate biscuit sticks with chopped hazelnuts (from Lotte and it's awesome), lots of canned food, vegetables and some fruits.

Thinking fondly of post-exam plans now~ But before that, I gotta work hard on GP! Going to get an A (even though it still seems impossible... like 35 for essay is super freaking high and 35 for compre is equally unattainable. And I need to get both ._.) because I don't want to jeopardize my chances of getting a scholarship (applications started by the way). And econs too. Simply cannot imagine how badly I'm going to fail this time.

And doing GP snippets is quite fun after all. Can't imagine why I didn't like it last time. Goodness.

when the moon and stars rise

2011-09-20T21:50:00.003+08:00

Images from revolvers@tumblr.

Loving all these whimsical looking pictures.

Nothing much to talk about 'cause it's exam period. Didn't go out much, didn't have time to daydream either. But it's not like I studied a whole lot, in fact I believe I studied much much less than what I usually do. Going to buck up and get my act together after this though. After a long long break. Maybe a week or so?

Getting used (or more like immune) to the difficulty of the papers. Not sure if I'm going to do well so the first response to people asking me how the paper was is 'difficult'. Which I'm not even sure what it actually means. Like, taking the first paper (chem paper 3) is 'difficult' because 1) I didn't really studied very hard for it and 2) It's been forever since I sit down and do questions on paper so I wasn't used to it. Taking the second paper (econs paper 1) is 'difficult' because I believe that the 15 marks question should not be as long as the 10 marks question and because it's econs afterall. So on and so forth. Maybe it's just me not putting in effort to think about how difficult the paper actually is, or maybe because I didn't even look at other schools' papers to know what difficult means, or maybe I'm afraid if I said the paper is doable and the grade sucks I'll be super disappointed. Keeping up with the twists and turns of the mind is tiring.

Thinking about school-related things like exams and studying is tiring. Thinking about going out with friends, sleeping in, going to places I love make things slightly more tolerable. And I keep getting hungry easily nowadays. Or maybe there's just something wrong with my body and I'm not hungry I just mistook whatever feeling that is as hunger. Not feeling super healthy at the moment because I didn't get my weekly exercise (no PE!) and because I've been feeling dizzy/nauseous recently and because I had the worst cramps ever in my entire life history. And I still indulge myself whenever I crave for cold things even though I know it'll kill me next month.

Trying to keep my mind focused on studies and nothing else. Boring as it may seem, you kind of get used to it after a while. And there's something (I wouldn't use the word 'nice') interesting when you get together with your friends and you don't feel like everything is a drama. Like you're suddenly insensitive to the interactions between people around you. And even if you take notice, it doesn't really matter. Which is kind of safe really.

Whatever. So sick of everything. I just want to take a break :)

huffy puffy

2011-09-08T21:01:00.002+08:00

Images from revolvers@tumblr.

Getting myself all up in a puff because my computer is prone to hanging nowadays and Moodle's gone and now we have Asknlearn and there's nothing there. And also because I don't know how to study for Econs and my brain is tired and I want to sleep.

I shall just give up and play and sleep at 10 and wake up at 7 to study :( Even though I've been slacking the entire week and today's the most productive day for Prelims mugging by far.

Okay I don't care.

here i go again

2011-08-27T09:52:00.002+08:00

Images from weatheredtulip@tumblr.

Just want to say I found this amazing Youtube band called Megan and Liz, who are absolutely pretty, creative (they have nice original songs) and cool twins. So... yeah that's about it.

That and the fact that I'm pretty sure I'm going to flunk GP :/

are you gonna kiss me or not?

2011-08-10T20:40:00.003+08:00

Images from revolvers@tumblr.

Love the song 'Are You Gonna Kiss Me Or Not' by Thompson Square so much! Check out the Caroline County version if you're free too. Her voice is angelic, no kidding. I've looped it the entire day!

Changed my msn font to hot pink! Figured I need some brightening up, especially when there's only 80+ days left to 'A's, and I need to buck up!! Blogging for the fun of it, since I'm so distracted (what's new?) and I've been such a depressed mope. And I found the 'angsty' isn't a formal word, surprise surprise.

Oh let me share with you my favourite items out of the grocery shopping trip last Saturday. We got the new Minute Maid Pulpy drink (maybe it isn't that new but it's my first time trying...) and I was really surprised by the sweetness of it. Mainly because I'm used to drinking more sour orange juices. MacDonald's have the worst orange juice I tell you. I bet it's actually half lime half orange, it's that sour. And we got King's ice cream. They don't have the Rocky Road flavour, as usual, not after so many years. But the tiramisu flavoured (first time trying it too) is heavenly! It doesn't taste that 'sorethroat inducing' like those thick chocolate flavoured ice cream. We got potato chips too, unhealthy but then again it's the holidays which were meant for people to get fat :)

Reading BBC now. Not going to play a game (or maybe just solitaire) before I sleep and charge up for Bio test tomorrow morning. Here's hoping I retained 70% of what I studied, enough to get me an A.

talking to the moon

2011-08-08T18:05:00.003+08:00

Lazy to find pictures today, partly because I'm feeling angsty. Maybe it's the effect of sleeping too much. Shall stay up late today to mug. Sleeping kills my productivity by x10000000000000000 but then again it's not like I was productive before. Going to memorise my apps notes now (so slow and I'm like trying not to swear at myself) before dinner. 1 more hour to go.

++

Bad bad mood :/ Hopefully I can get things done tomorrow though. Going to wake up at 9 and finish studying Bio by 1 (which is a very challenging task). And then going to start on Math revision package and also Chem revision worksheets. Then Wednesday is dedicated to doing a gp essay and to study my macro goals.

Feeling so angsty these few days and also very tired. Hoping that this is just a phase and it'll pass soon.

all the things you said, they were never true

2011-07-27T20:18:00.002+08:00

Images from madefearfully@tumblr.

Youtube makes me happy. Sara Niemietz makes me happy. Econs doesn't make me happy. But it's okay because I am going to own the test tomorrow (right, that's how you get your S in econs).

Was having such a stressful week and then I realised tomorrow's Thursday and then Friday will soon follow and then weekend date and sleep-in day and then school again but I'll think of that later.

Inspiring speech by VP Gan today (but actually I was admiring all his pictures on the slides). It's not like I'm not working hard now but... Yeah, it's only 3 more months.

the mass media

2011-07-21T22:32:00.002+08:00

Currently going mad from all the things I don't know. No wonder my GP is the way it is. And I realised no matter how much time I spend reading up on American politics or environmental debates it won't stick, mainly because the names are too long and the details are too complicated and therefore I won't be able to use them in my essay.

Gave up doing Sampling just to study the mass media notes and even though personally I don't think it has been insightful I hope I can make use of some of the 'arguments' in an essay. Going to search for examples tomorrow and do some essay outlines.

My weekend homework list (which I highly doubt I'll finish):

- econs essay

- gp essay

- gp compre

- sampling

- hypothesis testing

- periodicity

- organic chem

- mass media

- family and marriage

Realising that it's only 4 months to 'A' levels and feeling that my brain is literally empty kind of scares me.

empty spaces - what are we living for?

2011-07-18T21:23:00.002+08:00

Images from revolvers@tumblr.

Listening to some good old music by Queen. Really, really love Freddie Mercury. His life and his music is just awesome. Too bad I get easily distracted by him else I will put him on loop the whole day and learn up all his lyrics.

Some of my favourites:
- The Show Must Go On
- Love Of My Life
- Who Wants To Live Forever
- Bohemian Raphsody
- Somebody To Love
- We Are The Champions
- We Will Rock You

Really awesome. People who don't appreciate Queen... I have nothing to say to you.

So much work to do (as usual, I complain about this in every single post). But no use lamenting over them, I just got to keep up and work harder. Thinking of some fun and distractions to serve as motivation now :)

But getting back to reality.
Math test next week and I'm lagging on 3 tutorials. Brilliant (I haven't even read the notes). And still extremely shaky on previous topics.

:(

Shall finish reading Sampling tonight.

when you're far away

2011-07-12T21:03:00.002+08:00

Images from revolvers@tumblr.

Such a tiring day today. And having a gigantic ulcer that makes you look like an asymmetrical pufferfish doesn't help either.

But I have so much work to do and I just wanted to blog for fun. To list out the things I'm supposed to do tonight and then enjoy the sense of achievement as I tick them off.

- GP essay (left last point already! + conclusion)

- Chemical equilibria (12 and 13)

- Normal distribution (I think I will most likely finish this tomorrow since I'm already 80% brain dead and still going)

Let me go back to my religious arguments T.T

and i set fire to the rain

2011-07-10T19:49:00.002+08:00

Images from rosavelenosa@tumblr.

I know it's like some crazy long time since I blogged but lessons start tomorrow and I have so much to say about my post-exam week :)

I left the previous post about Math paper. It was alright (at least the questions I don't know, a lot of people have no idea how to do it either) and I'm getting it back tomorrow. Actually all the papers are alright after I took them, don't know why either. But yeah after the Bio paper which is on Friday, I enter super duper holiday mood which involves gaming on my laptop, going out with Sheryl (we had a fun day at Ikea and I had my raspberry cheesecake... it was nice!) and more slacking around at home. So I smoked through my Econs case study which is not very recommendable because I finished like right on the dot and my last essay was kind of abbreviated and messy.

But of course, after Econs it was true liberation so I didn't give it much thought. Went around the 3 malls with Jane to get Zoe's birthday present and also something for Denise who is flying off soon. Caught Transformers in 3D with dad and personally I liked it, though I wouldn't want to watch it again. And it's my first 3D experience so I would say it's kind of tiring for the eyes and the glasses are huge. So I'll probably stick to 2D next time round. We shared popcorn too... A mix of salty and sweet popcorn, which we happily finished.

Wednesday and Thursday were dedicated to Learning Festival and I must say it went beyond my expectations (because they weren't very high in the first place considering the title of the programmes). For Wednesday we had a talk by Ms Leah Aw (I still remember her as the pretty ACE teacher in Year 4) about how swiss rolls are better than pancakes. Not literally, because I like pancakes better, especially with the syrup! Then it was cyber-wellness which didn't go down very well with me because I feel that I've been drilled about safe usage of computers well enough, seeing how there are similar talks every year. But then we had a debate so at least I had to use some brain cells which made the programme a little better. After that we had house interaction which was basically slack time at the student lounge until we are officially released for lunch (I was as hungry as cookie monster by then). Following which was the interview skills workshop which I quite enjoyed. I was in the same cluster as Nic so we sat together! And when I got home I decided to get my draft resume done up (not that the talk was particularly inspiring, but because I feel that seeing how this is my second interview skills workshop in the past 1 to 2 years I better get something done).

*I can see that this is going to be such a long post.*

Thursday was about the same too. Went early for a briefing about the dialogue session (which I haven't done my research on), and had a relationship module after that. The speaker was good, quite humorous, but the lesson was a little slow. My favourite part of the programme was this drawing game. So it was like they had this image done up in PowerPoint and one person is supposed to describe while the other person draws (without looking at the screen). It's a rather complicated kind of picture, like many triangles and rectangles and circles and stickmen with hands pointing in certain directions. I paired up with Zoe and we had lots of fun :) I went off a little early for my mock interview because me and a few other people didn't get to do it on Wednesday due to time constraints and I was nervous like mad. So totally didn't prepare my answers, so I'll spend some time on it when I'm more free. After the relationship module was the dining etiquette lecture (I know right, how to lecture about how to eat, but somehow they managed it). They covered Malay, Indian, Chinese, Japanese and Western dining, and since it was a bit like a rush job plus it was at the auditorium so I won't say I learnt much. Not entirely a lost cause though!

Friday was fun because we were all looking so forward to it, though it was kind of madness to wake up so early to catch the train. Spent the day on the beach with Karen and Zoe, mostly to watch our class play Frisbee (so proud of you all!) and to go down to the shoreline to play with fishes and water. Got my first taste of Cluedo (the card version) and I liked it! Daniel and Yihao even went all the way to 7-11 (I think it was really quite far, like must take bus and all that) with Mrs Lee to get drinks and food for us (thank you!). One thing I didn't quite like was lunch, surprisingly. So I didn't finish it :/ Plus it was kind of a hazard to be eating on the beach with all the sand around you. I went for dinner with Karen and Zoe at Vivo's food court. Shared fried prawn noodles and some fried food (I don't really know what it's called in English but it's this mix of prawn crackers, squid, sausages, fishballs and things like that). After dinner we went to shop at Daiso and obviously I bought the most things ._. Got a tray for my notebooks/worksheets/rough paper on my table, a pencil case with cute cat motifs, a corkboard, patterned paper, a frog shaped dustbin and a clothes hanger for mom. When I got home, my mom's guests were already there and I watched a little bit of TV with them before going unconscious for 10 hours. Happiness indeed.

Saturday was awesome! The guests went off for their daughter's graduation ceremony at NUS and she looked so cute in her graduation clothes ^^ Had the morning to myself and I went to use the computer and slacked around the house, read a book and so on. Decorated my corkboard too! Haven't got around hanging in up because I need to look for a hook and some string. Went out to meet Denise in the afternoon and I read a bit of Phantom of the Opera while waiting for her. It was good! We went to the National Museum of Singapore together since students go in for free anyway. Visited the History Gallery, some photography gallery and a watch-making gallery. I found a new museum buddy! We went to visit the Cathay after that and looked around some really nice shops selling pretty, artsy things. Then had Japanese food for dinner and I felt so guilty 'cause she won't let me pay. The food was so good that I couldn't force myself to finish it anymore (yeah, we ordered that much). Then I went with her to Carrefour to get some bread before she went off to meet her other friend. Reached home, showered and watch my Taiwanese show! Like what my mom said, in theory you will think that such shows are silly and lame but once you get down to watching it it can be quite funny and addictive. Totally what's happening to me now.

Today was a good day too. Mom and Dad went off with some other relatives to Malaysia for a one-day trip to visit some fruit plantation and to have a durian/seafood feast. Coming back soon I hope! So her friends sent us to church (thank goodness because the alternative was to wake up at a ghastly 6 to catch the bus because my sister needs to reach early since she's on duty). Sermon today was on married life so it's not really applicable and I was feeling sleepy. Because walking around and staying up to watch TV makes you so tired that 8 hours of sleep is not enough to cure it. I know 8 hours is like a luxury to most (and it is to me too) but I was doing a lot of physical work the past few days and I didn't have the most comfortable bed to sleep in so it wasn't enough. Took the bus back with Chen En after church home and me and my sister went to put everything back in place. It was hard work, but I felt so much better seeing everything back in place. Then I showered, ate some bread, read a book, and went to sleep! Okay, granted I woke up groggy but I'm still glad I slept because I was so brain dead. Packed my table (it's looking so much better now) and my bag! Using the one with the spoilt zip because my school bag's in the wash after being drowned in sand from Sports Carnival.

Then I realised I have math homework, which I am going to do after I shower like right now. It's been a long eventful week which I'm really thankful for. Thank you God, for looking after me and making sure I had fun. Thank you for giving me this positive mindset and that people around me were all happy too.

This is such a long post I still couldn't get round the fact that I was so naggy haha. If you manage to read all the way here you're good (Y).

we can make forever feel this way

2011-06-28T21:19:00.002+08:00

Math paper tomorrow and I'm so edgy and jumpy. Need to enter zen mode and finish studying photosynthesis and sleep early. Wasted quite a lot of time today because I'm still in holiday mode (slow adaptability I know). Got to buck up if I want any hope of getting a good grade for Bio this time round.

love in the speaker

2011-06-24T20:14:00.002+08:00

Images from wildhearts@tumblr.

Loving all the Youtube covers I can find! Still wondering how all the good singers always seem to stay in the same district and make duets and stuff like that.

If you're feeling bored you can check out some of my current favourite singers:

- Jake Coco

- Julia Sheer

- Tyler Ward

- Kurt Schneider/Sam Tsui

Happy bubbles flying in the air~

it's the freedom of a thousand doves

2011-06-23T08:45:00.002+08:00

Images from rosavelenosa@tumblr.

Tired girl today after spending 2 hours of brain power memorizing Chem planning questions. Going to start on econs. I'll attempt to finish the pile in front of me by 2 today or something. Which is quite a lot in my opinion considering how I'm not really an econs type of girl haha. But well I'll try. And if I succeed I'll let myself finish reading the book I'm currently reading before coming back to work on Bio.

Hope things go well.

if you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea, i'll sail the world to find you.

2011-06-20T21:52:00.002+08:00

Images from passengerseats@tumblr.

Shall blog about some happy things to make me happy.
Bio boot camp was :/ Pretty sure I failed both papers because I haven't studied enough :( Contemplating if I should take the second paper tomorrow on the spot or bring home to do because I haven't finish revision yet. Meeting Mrs Lee for Chem consultation and I'm going to do my MCQ book during the break. The MCQ book that brings me high blood pressure haha.

Going to study with Sheryl this coming Wednesday and I am going to own Math and Chem once and for all. And Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday fully devoted to Econs. Oh boyyy let me get a B for Econs please pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee :(

Alrighty shall finish off genetics of bacteria and sleep. Another long day tomorrow with 2 bio papers to battle.

repent

2011-06-18T21:34:00.003+08:00

Images from rosavelenosa@tumblr.

Guiltily slack day today. Woke up late and had an extremely greasy but satisfying breakfast and reluctantly dragged myself to look at 2 pages of Economic Growth (which I still haven't finish by the way). Died about 20 minutes later and attempted to revise Biology. Another major flop after making one page's worth of notes. Ended up curling on the sofa reading my book. Did about 40 MCQs for Bio out of which I got 15 wrong. Went online and got sucked into playing flash games (again) and celebrated my sister's birthday with an awesome delicious hazelnut cake from Emicakes. Watched a bit of TV and showered and got ready for birthday-cum-Fathers'-Day dinner, which is crabs. Chili crabs and black pepper crabs which were nice but really spicy and as you know our tolerance for spiciness is like close to nil. Even my mom couldn't take it and we were all perspiring and having all sorts of weird physical reactions. Plus it was messy. But it's alright because it's a once in a long while kind of affair and we are going to eat cleaner food from tomorrow onwards. More water more tea more fruits. More mugging too.

So to alleviate a little of my immense guilt, I shall set myself a challenging task tomorrow and try my hardest to finish it. To revise all bio topics by tomorrow. (Oh boy. This is gonna be tough.)

Shall continue with my first year 6 topic for Bio T.T

burning the midnight oil

2011-06-17T00:16:00.003+08:00

Images from adistance@tumblr.

SO STRESSED OUT BY CHEM DRILL QUESTIONS. I don't know if it really helps considering how it doesn't teach me how to explain trends and stuff like that but I guess I'll rely on tutorial answers for help someday. Lots of things to do tomorrow!

Start work at 9.30.
Sunday school homework till 10.30.
Year6 Bio till 1
Inorganic chem MCQs till 4.
Unemployment and Economic Growth till 6.
Slack around till 8.
Inflation, Unemployment and Economic Growth essays till 12.

Sounds crazy but I shall try my best. Probably will go and buy myself something nice to eat to reward myself (and grow fat).

Is it ironic that the song playing now is 'Crazier'?

motivation

2011-06-12T17:04:00.003+08:00

Images from thebottomofthecoffeecup@tumblr.

No Sunday school today! Instead I stayed back and chatted with Esther while waiting for my mom. Anddddddd somehow that gave me a little bit more motivation (which is currently at like negative 20 on a scale of 1 to 10) to work. Ploughing my way through organic chem with 4 more topics to go T.T And then I'll start on inorganic chem. And tomorrow I'll read my year 5 bio notebook (thank goodness I made a notebook, that's all I can say) on my study date with Sheryl. Will be bringing the tys along as well. Thinking of what to wear to make me feel more comfortable about studying out (not shorts, that's for sure). Cause every time I wear my uniform of t-shirts and shorts at home I feel... lazy. Super duper uber lazy. So hopefully some fresh air + air-con + workish clothes can put me in study mode. And coffee of course.

I actually come online to clarify some chem discrepancies so I better not waste it on Tumblr/Facebook/blogs. Shall continue with alcohols and hopefully I can finish carbonyl compounds before dinner (what a joke. I'm having dinner in like 45 minutes' time and I only just started on preparation of alcohols).

Blogging makes me feel better though, I don't know why. Maybe it's the feeling of talking to myself and making things clearer to myself that makes me want to set a good example and do what I ought to be doing. If I take psychology maybe I'll learn this.

Oh and just a note: listening to classical music while doing work is EXTREMELY conducive. Now I'm thankful for that super huge stack of classical CDs my mom made me get when I was younger.

love love love

2011-06-09T21:33:00.002+08:00

Images from wildhearts@tumblr.

Quite a good day today :D Almost fully recovered and went to the mall with mum. Spent a little too much so I promise to be frugal from now on. Bought facial products (facial wash and hydra emulsion for me, facial wash for my mom and my sister and yellow and pink nail polish for me). Went to the supermarket after that and got grass jelly, rocky road ice cream (my favourite!), fruit salad ice cream, hash browns, cheese pizzas, condensed milk, sauce for cooking fish and chicken. Went to guardian sale and bought packet ribena, hi-chews and pads (yeah ._. but if you buy 2 sets you get a free aussino pillow, so it's not bad right?). AND I CARRIED LIKE 2/3 OF IT HOME BECAUSE I WALK FASTER.

Did more math today and starting on a common test paper which I doubt I'll finish today. Probably finish this up and the 2009 one and then probably start a bit of bio. Surprised at how I'm still not freaking out even though I know I should put in more effort. But as the saying goes, put everything in God's hands and you won't have to worry. So I'll just try my best, no pressure and then get ready to own CTs (right). Aiming for a low B for Econs (not that ambitious, I don't even know how an A paper looks like) and work my way towards an A from there.

Enough slackinggg MATH TIME!

liquid sunshine

2011-06-07T13:57:00.002+08:00

Images from mustardcourage@tumblr.

Wondering what on earth I'm missing out from econs lecture today :/ Hope my throat will miraculously recover by tomorrow! I'm tricking myself into thinking it's getting better and I think it's more bearable than yesterday (or maybe I'm just getting more resistant haha nah kidding).

Spent my day lounging at home reading books and spamming water and ulcer gel and herbal tea (I honestly don't like them. Very much.) and of course surfing Youtube. I think 张芸京 is so darn cute haha. If she's a guy I will totally have a crush on her. Manual looking the song '坏了' muahaha it's really not bad :D And somewhat relevant.

Sorry lol bimbo rant but hey I somewhat flipped through 2 more chapters of Microecons! I don't get how elasticity is relevant in a question like 'Discuss how the tourism related industries in Bangkok could reduce the impacts of or increase the gains from the turmoil.' And I highly doubt I can come up with something like that during CTs. Feeling doomed to the max lol.

Throat's hurting again. Should not get happy too early lol.

dying in process

2011-06-06T18:15:00.002+08:00

Images from revolvers@tumblr.

My throat doesn't seem to get any better and the medicine only served to make me drowsy. Just woke up from a 2 hours nap and I feel like I can go right to sleep again. How to study at the rate I'm going?

If what the doctor said is right, that I'm going to recover only by Thursday or Friday, then I'm majorly screwed. Because it means I can't do any proper work till then and then I'll be left with like 1 week to revise all Bio topics before Bio boot camp. Not to mention I have 3 other subjects to study for too.

I'm already trying my best to focus but I just keep getting distracted and sleepy. And now I take longer to eat, like about 1 hour when I used to only take 15 minutes. Then because I feel so grossed out by my throat and how much it hurts after eating I take even longer to settle down. Plus I keep drinking a lot of water and it only makes me feel bloated and does not soothe my throat at all, so my kidneys are working extra hard for nothing.

I'm honestly a mess right now. God, I need strength, seriously.

a girl worth fighting for

2011-06-04T15:34:00.002+08:00

Images from lovefumes@tumblr.

SAT is over! Happiness overload. I am so majorly tired though :( Going to slack around and take a shower later before starting on math. Met Georgina today again and she's still as cute as ever :D Went back with her and Sheryl and they hit off well~ (or so I think) and met my mom at Tampines MRT and she bought mango ice cream for me haha.

I want to get well soon so that I can go study with Jane and go for breakfast with Sheryl!! And to buy Cassandra's present! (I can't believe I get excited over buying birthday presents for people, but I do.)

you and me, we could light up the sky

2011-06-02T21:24:00.003+08:00

Images from lovefumes@tumblr.

Happy girl today because I finished my work! Marking the SAT papers I did now and I have a feeling I got a lot of those vocab/passage questions wrong :/ I shall open my eyes bigger on Saturday because I don't want to retake it again.

(After marking a few sections...)

I WAS RIGHT. At least math is kinda safe I guess.
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I'm marking my second paper now and I am honestly APPALLED at how blind I am. 40% see as 60%. 4 segments see as 3 segments. Having this suicidal tendency by stabbing myself with the pencil now T.T And the writing section is atrocious as usual. I hate reading the passages :(

I barely got a 2000 points in total :/ SMU's basic requirement is 1900 and considering how fierce the competition is going to be I need at least a 2100 I supposed. But look at the sorry state of my English and... SIGH :/ It's this Saturday I NEED ALL THE HELP I CAN GET :(

not today

2011-06-01T20:47:00.003+08:00

Images from lovefumes@tumblr.

So so so tired my eyes are closing. Went to school and had chem/math/lab so I'm really all knackered out. And my parents are back, I'm so glad :D I love the shoes my mom bought (maybe they are not something I would choose but I don't exactly mind them either so it's fine) and I'm glad I had a good dinner tonight.

Thankfully there's not school tomorrow so I can sleep a little longer. Though I think I should go sleep now and wake up earlier to do work.

I think if I sleep at about 9 and wake up at 7 it's more than enough? It's like 10 hours. So okay, I'll start work at 8. Probably start by reading (for the first time) international trade and BOP which should take me about 3 hours. Then I'll slack around a bit and have my lunch and start on my SAT papers. Aiming to finish 2 tomorrow. Since each paper is about 3 hours (excluding the essay part) plus break that should take me about 7 to 8 hours. So technically I can finish by 7pm and I can watch tv while having dinner. Then I'll go online at night and slack a bit and sleep early because I'm going to do some lab work early on Friday.

So Friday I'll be having lab and econs lecture and hopefully nothing drags (like lab stuff) then I'll go home take a shower/have my lunch and go to Sheryl's house which will probably be like 2pm? Doing one more SAT paper and then look through the essay part. By then it'll be like 6 going 7 and I'll go home to slack/have dinner and then look through some vocab stuff/go through all the questions that I got wrong. Then sleep even earlier because I must reach ACJC by 7.45am on Saturday.

Sounds ambitious, but hopefully I'll live up to it. And the first step is to turn off the computer and go to bed. Goodnight!

bad moods and bruises

2011-05-31T09:42:00.002+08:00

Images from sundaeonsunday@tumblr.

I missed my parents! :( Not just because now I have to do housework (which is minimal) but because I don't want to be responsible for every single thing. Like getting breakfast and registering for my sister at the doctor and picking up the phone and washing/drying/keeping the clothes. I AM ANGRY OKAY. It wouldn't be so bad if some people are a little more cooperative and make my life easier, BUT GUESS WHAT? Not only am I responsible, I still have to maintain decorum and ask/nag at some people when I jolly well don't want to. But I promised my parents I wouldn't fight with some people and because I'm almost 18 and 18 is supposedly mature and that there are kids out there barely surviving while I have food/clothes/a nice house to stay in SO I CANNOT CALL HER A BITCH AND POINT THE MIDDLE FINGER AT HER. Although I guess even if I can I won't because it's not very nice so what I'm doing now is to just ignore her and then yell at my mom for leaving me and her alone when she calls. I hate being the older sister when everybody thinks I'm younger anyway. So it's like when something goes wrong and I am supposedly responsible (don't ask me why, nobody actually told me I was supposed to be responsible) I am termed as a lousy older sister and therefore should be better off as the younger one. But when they need you they will just go 'You're the older sister anyway what' AND THEN I'M SUPPOSED TO ACT MY PART. Irony oh irony. I am so boiling mad now I can't even tell you how much I want my parents to FLY BACK NOW. And now she's whining to my mom and it will somehow be my fault again. But I am not going to take responsibility because I really freaking tried my best okay. I know it's kinda wrong to make my parents feel obliged to come back early but can I just say that this is really too much?

Anyway, I just sure as hell hope I didn't get infected from her. A little worried (or even paranoid) because I think I'm having the same syndromes, though it's not very obvious yet.

But whatever. I have better things to do. Like chem and econs and SATS. Ugh sheryl can you just come online I am dying of madness~~

you light the skies up above me

2011-05-25T20:40:00.002+08:00

Images from love-ride@tumblr.

So happy now that GP is over~ Shall not think about it anymore (I was kinda freaked out because I did the paper in a semi-conscious state) and leave it to God!

Slacked around after lunch with Jane and watched tv/read kiddish books/watch more tv/surf tumblr and facebook/snack/watch tv.

June holidays coming soon! My mom says to wait for Popular's 20% off then I can go mass buy ring files and pen refills and correction tapes and foolscap pads and L-shaped files and to get a case/pouch for my GC (shall take out all the stickers on it too they're getting ugly). Student woes~

Yay mom went to buy Breadtalk for breakfast tomorrow. Going to bring to school as well~ Even though I probably should start my slimming regime soon I SAW STRETCH MARKS ON MY THIGHS. Seriously. Freaked me out so bad but I'm still eating and sleeping and lounging on my sofa like nobody's business. Kind of disgusted at my own sluggish behaviour. I solemnly swear I'll work hard this June holidays and let my brain use more ATP so that I feel more justified eating all the chips and sweets and chocolates and carbohydrates.

Actually I should really stop eating junk food also because of the crazy outbreak on my forehead. I never had outbreaks before okay. Must be because recently too stressed then keep running to the fridge/snacks store to take food. Though I don't know what there is to be stressed about. Mom helped me did some cucumber mask thing (which is basically gooey stuff on your face) and I couldn't see for a whole 15 minutes cause I can't wear my spectacles. This afternoon I played with my lipgloss that someone gave me (I don't really like makeup on my face) and it's also gooey and my hair keeps sticking to it. EXACTLY LIKE HOW MY HAIR STICKS TO THE FACE MASK. It was kind of a deja vu moment lol.

All in all, I CAN'T BELIEVE THERE'S STILL SCHOOL TOMORROW.

on rainy days

2011-05-21T20:03:00.003+08:00

Images from wildhearts@tumblr.

Had a super ultra productive day (that I'm amazed at myself actually).

Finished binomial distribution tutorial, went grocery shopping with my mom (lotsa snacks now, I'm going to grow even fatter oh my goodness), finished poisson distribution, practiced next week's choir song, started a little on next week's sunday school homework, played more piano, finished 2 books (eh meg cabot's mediator series haha... nothing too heavy), finished BES powerpoint slides (YESSS SUPER HAPPY AFTER THAT)... MY DAY WAS PRETTY AWESOME. I feel proud of myself, seriously.

Now I'm waiting for Crystal to come online to discuss tomorrow's lesson's icebreaker and Jiaren to come online to discuss about relative inflation (I'm not sure myself actually). And to finish up next week's sunday school homework and have an early night.

Just went to check out my wardrobe and tried on a few skirts I never wore since forever AND I GREW FATTER. Seriously. I look like a freaking penguin/carebear/panda in those skirts. Need to start exercising and eat less. Ugh :/

but I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet

2011-05-20T20:37:00.002+08:00

Images from wildhearts, possiblydreaming, revolvers, sundaeonsunday, adistance, peanutsforlunch, rosavelenosa from tumblr (so many hahaha).

So many things going on around me :/ Trying hard not to get involved but you gotta be blind to not see it. How can some people be so focused on success that they don't see how they are hurting the people around them? Don't know what to do/say.

Replenishing my tumblr queue now. Plan to do BES powerpoint totally went down the drain. Oh well, tomorrow night or Sunday afternoon I guess. Hopefully I learn something useful for GP tomorrow!

vesak day and budget deficits

2011-05-17T12:50:00.002+08:00

Loving school holidays (who doesn't?) because I can sleep in and just wear t-shirts and shorts the whole day. One and a half more week to June holidays! Looking forward to the mugging sessions and longer hours of sleep and more t-shirts and shorts assembles.

Crazy day yesterday. I actually paid attention to every single lesson yesterday, including assembly! Which resulted in one hell of a headache but I promised to go for Cas' concert with Sheryl so I couldn't very well back out. It was fun though. Taking the bus and ended up missing our stop and walking all the way to Parkway and staring into space (or people watching) while munching on peanut pancakes and walking around Parkway looking for something to buy for Cas and making lame jokes about heavy bags and fats. I didn't enjoy the concert as much as I expected to though :/ Killer headaches make you want to go home and sleep haha. But some of the songs they played were really good, despite the crazy overrun. So good to see Cas again! She's as tall as ever and I can't wait to meet up with her in the holidays :) I still think that year 3 and 4 are the best years of my school life, 'cause of the awesome company :D

Woke up at 8.30 today (bliss!) and slacked around watching a bit of tv and eating breakfast and finally got down to studying cell signalling. I think I got it. Left with the last few pages on the application but I want to do application first. Going to do the BES slides tonight now that my desktop is back and get myself ready to survive the remaining 3 days. A little worried for GP common test though :/

Alas it's already 1! :O Gotta buck up now.

NOT HAPPY

2011-05-11T20:34:00.002+08:00

WITH THE LOUSY LAPTOP CHARGER THAT CAME WITH MY LAPTOP.

Like seriously? Less than a year and it's dysfunctional? Thank God it's still within the warranty period else I would have throw the lousy charger at the HP technicians. So going to call them up tomorrow and ask them what on earth is going on.

Went to google and realised that a lot of HP laptop users are facing the same problem. Charger doesn't work, despite changing to all sorts of power points. High beeping sounds whenever power's turned on. And the most epic one was the last time when the whole laptop just will not switch on and I had to send it down for repair. Turns out the motherboard is spoilt.

So many problems within a year. WHAT IS WRONG?
Plus I don't even use it that often. Not since PW. And I'm only using it now because the desktop is screwed too. Keep getting the blue screen of death and it will just restart again.

I should just study to become a computer technician, seeing how the computers in my house love to go on strike. And it will be handy so I won't have to spend 2 hours on call-waiting to talk to a technician.

SIGH :(

you'll be surprised if you try

2011-05-01T18:10:00.003+08:00

Images from rosavelenosa@tumblr.

Realised I haven't blog since forever.

School's okay, tests are okay (or so I think... until I get them back haha.) Spending my days in a blur, mix of thought bubbles clashing and popping and merging, trying to get some work done but always lost to the alluring power of sleep. I'm kind of glad to have the Monday holiday to get my work done. Math, Bio, Chem, Econs, GP. It's not that I don't like to do work (in fact I find it rather enjoyable and soothing and a good way to distract yourself), it's only when it gets difficult it gets frustrating. Aren't all work like that?

Had a good day out with Sheryl yesterday. Love our new study spot, and she certainly did a lot of work! As compared to me, at any rate. I merely ploughed through 2 chapters of Year 5 Econs in 5 hours. Got to start trying hard for Econs instead of passing it off as the subject's fault, for being boring and sleep-inducing and mind-numbing. Also need to keep fit and exercise more to work off all the excess calories I took in when I'm sitting around reading books and going online and watching tv. Not that I'm a weight freak or anything, but it's just all these food that goes unburnt that's making me feel heavy and greasy and all that. Downing down bottles of water as my anti-heaty food solution didn't work quite well either. So I guess I need to put in more effort in PE haha. Though I did try my best to run and catch stuff but height plays a part too okay.

Today's church session was good too. Though I look like a fashion nightmare (not that I didn't look like one in the past, I just look more like one today) because my muddled brain cannot think of a nice combination from the wardrobe and I figured wearing heels are too inappropriate because I thought there will be running around today. Sat through the session with Denise, and I'm going to miss her a lot when she goes off to study! Looking forward to our June outing (which we have been talking about since like 4 years ago and we still haven't went out even once) before she leaves. I need to stop feeling so shy around the girls in church, because even though they are all older, I'm sure we can find something in common to talk about if I just TRY. And the funniest thing is that even when I'm all shy and awkward around them, I feel safe around them, like I can slowly take my time to adjust and they will be so patient waiting for me to be willing to talk. Which probably explains why I make more mistakes in school, like when I'm all stressed and my brain is geared in a high energy level I will just blurt out the first thing that comes to my mind and carry on in that direction... Not exactly a good thing, I can assure you. Plus I need to get more pleasant things out of my mouth and keep those negative personal feelings to myself. The power of the tongue huh?

Going through my miserable 2 topics that I went through yesterday again as a revision before I move on to market failure. And I'll probably start on endocrine system tutorial (because it looks doable) and revise macroecons tomorrow. And get pass all the questions I'm getting stuck at (like binomial distribution and electrochemistry) and just continue the tutorial. Though it is kind of disheartening to get stuck after 4 questions. But like I said, you'll never know what you are capable of until you try. And I will try to get that straight 'A's this year, and an almost perfect score for SAT (I try, I hope, I better do).

you won't find heart and soul in the stars

2011-04-18T20:32:00.002+08:00

Images from mustardcourage@tumblr.

Had a fun day today! Relatively so, anyway. Anyway I saw something on tumblr something like it is so much easier to do things if you like it, so I shall try my best to like writing chemical equations and writing essays and do economic evaluations.

So, about my fun day. Had a pretty good (and mind numbing) math tutorial because I rushed out my tutorial today. The same did not apply for chem, regrettably so. Then had a rather interesting gp lecture on the environment and I'm looking forward to reading the slides! (Goodness me.) Had a good lunch with the girls then raided the book shop with Zoe :) Assembly was cool too, had a DJ coming down to speak to us about entering the media industry. Then I started to feel sleep creeping in during chem tutorial but I tried my best to stay awake :D Stayed back to do some work (and Kangrui was being really quiet so it was all good) AND I DECIDED P&C ISN'T MY 'THANG'. My mom came to fetch me and we went to the Shop and Save near my sister's school and bought lotsa good food. Chocolate milk and blackcurrant drink with aloe vera. And my favourite ice lemon green tea! And 8 small packets of chips (they come together) and sweets to survive the rest of the week. Must eat in moderation else I'll end up with diabetes :( Fetched my sister and we showered at lightning speed so that we can watch tv. I LOVE THAT SHOW :D Always felt so sad when it ends cause it means I need to do some work haha. And all I've done so far is to extract all my practical worksheets and plonk myself down in front of the computer and surf tumblr + blog + youtube.

Such a nice long happy chunky paragraph :D I'm probably quite mad but at least it's a happy mad which I'm thankful for. Shall go study for my 2 mock SPA tomorrow!

make you feel my love

2011-04-17T21:12:00.002+08:00

Images from lovefumes@tumblr.

My current favourite songs (so technically the word to use isn't 'favourite' anymore):

Adele - Rolling In The Deep
Adele - Someone Like You
Adele - Make You Feel My Love
The Script - Science and Faith
Glee - Get It Right
Fireflight - For Those Who Wait
Lady Antebellum - Need You Now

And many more actually. Like Bon Jovi and Glee and Queen and all the unsigned singers I listen to.

Had such a great weekend (albeit somewhat unproductive but I guess you can't do everything at one go right?) and here it goes:

Saturday: Probability, going mad over the blue screen of death, discussed sunday school project with crystal, attempted to bring in the clothes 'cause it was raining, read a book, helped my dad type a quotation, dragged furniture around to make room for my mom's friends who are staying over, more math, showered and meet sheryl, talked nonsense on the train, continue talking nonsense while eating, ICE CREAM!!, walked around marina square (muji!!), more nonsense on the train, help sheryl buy her friend's present, go home, shower, read book, eat fruits, talk to crystal on the phone and rehearsed the skit, watch tv, eat supper that my mom's friends bought back, watch more tv, sleep.

Sunday: wake up, shower, dress up, go to church, sing, doodle on notebook, go to class, rehearse for skit again (super hilarious i tell you), had lesson, finish church, had lunch at bedok reservoir's kfc, buy tomorrow's breakfast, chatted with my mom's friend who stays there, go home, move back furniture, shower, did math (with the aircon on, it was such a religious experience okay), gave up, go online, go on youtube, play spider solitaire, go out for dinner, bought mango ice cream on the way to tampines mall (super good!), visited the funfair across the mrt, bought socks, go to tampines mall to get mom's hand cream, walked along the flea market a little, go home, watch tv, shower, attempt to do math, go on youtube, NOW I'M GOING TO DO CHEM.

:D

someone like you

2011-04-15T20:37:00.003+08:00

Images from passengerseats@tumblr.

Such a long tiring day today. I think I did okay for Bio test (much better than the previous one definitely, at least I didn't leave any answers blank) but how well I've done remains to be seen.

Stayed back after school with Karen to do some work. Finished the Chem prac flowchart (and that's it) then stole Edmund's food (which we didn't know was his at that point in time but we were seriously starving) and then Karen went for tuition and I played Sudoku while waiting for my mom.

Now that I've finished my tv and browsing through tumblr/facebook and even lookbook I AM SERIOUSLY BORED. Thinking if I should do GP or math.

So excited for tomorrow's outing! :D

broken trust and broken hearts

2011-04-11T20:24:00.002+08:00

I decided this shall be a words-only post! Change is good uh huh. Just wanted to say how much I love Maddi Jane. She's this 11 y/o (maybe 12 now) girl with a really good voice! And I think she's so much cooler than me even though I'm 7 years older!

And I discovered the best thing about ending school early... Taking naps! Maybe it's the sleep-inducing quality of Nitrogen compounds that got to me but I didn't move for that 1 hour plus. And I know that because I'm in the same position I placed myself in when I climbed into my bed.

Now I need to do my GP homework but my eyes are still closing. I think I'm totally turning into one major slacker that will give up and go to sleep whenever I see work (oh no).

SIGH.

it's only the beginning

2011-04-08T20:25:00.002+08:00

Images from passengerseats@tumblr.

Yay it's the weekend! Was feeling so bummed about the previous weekend that I didn't think I can enjoy this week and have things to be thankful for, but I did.

I'm so thankful that I got a D for 2.4 ._. There's still 5 items to overcome but hey, it's half the battle won! And I'm also super thankful for the good PW results our school got, after all the hard work we put in. So so grateful to my group and to Mr Chang who is one of the most responsible teachers you can find in school, who will stay up to wait for your WR just to help you look through it at like 2am in the morning.

So the last 2 days were pretty good, really. But socially I guess I'm not doing as well. Just suddenly feel so aware of how cold the world is, and how we are actually all growing to be wary of each other. Despite us putting on this really friendly front trying to engage each other in intimate topics, it just doesn't seem right. Such a stark contrast to what I was feeling a few weeks earlier, all bubbly and feeling like I can take on the world. I guess whenever there's an up there'll be a down. So this is my 'down', and I can only say thankfully the only way I can go is up. Hopefully after this 'down' stage I'll feel a little more enlightened about the ways of the world and the ways of God (both of which I feel that I can never comprehend even if I were to have 10 lives) and I can start afresh again.

But now I shall be contented with the present and focus on the tasks ahead: HOMEWORK.

Revise Photosynthesis, Respiration and Homeostasis
Complex Numbers
P&C
Revise Organic Chem
Carboxylic Acid
Nitrogen compounds
Macro & Micro notes
GP examples
GP worksheet
GP comprehension

I probably should start studying for SATs too. Shouldn't let my $30++ book go to waste :/

make your heart stop

2011-04-02T09:33:00.003+08:00

Images from wildhearts@tumblr.

Yay it's the weekends! Happy max. Yesterday was pretty good too. Played an April Fool's joke on Mr Chua and he was so cool about it haha. But it also reminds me to hurry finish all my math tutorials 'cause he's going super fast. Oh why is time moving so quickly!

Going to compile all the econs notes and then add in some skills section and type some essays for every topic. Mega worried for Econs and GP because I don't wanna get a 'B' for 'A' levels :( Oh well I guess we'll all just have to work harder.

Some of the little things that made me happy yesterday:

My parents came to fetch me after school to have dinner (I was dying from hunger and the food was awesome. So yeah.)
I wore my new purple FBTs! (Eh the colour quite cool one okay. And it was the first time my mom said I should get the smaller size than what I'm wearing LOL.)
TV time. TV is always good.
Ice cream time! I don't think you can get sick of mocha and chocolate ice cream can you? Though I'm hoping for rocky road/strawberry ice cream the next time round BUT I CAN'T SEEM TO FIND IT ALL THE TIME.
Snack time at night! (If you think that snacking at 10pm is evil, don't come to my house. My mom offered to share her snacks with me!)

Things I need to get done (and hopefully do over this weekend):

Econs notes (content only, I'll add the essays and stuff some other time)
Carboxylic acid tutorial
Compile chem notes (now I understand why organic chem is such a pain)
Finish math 18B and 18C tutorial
Finish half of the math revision package (Vectors and Binomials?)
Finish the GP homework
Do Photosynthesis essays
START compiling bio notes! (I really did love all the long long notes I compiled in Year 3 LOL.)
Respiration tutorial (MCQ only, I don't think I can stand finishing all of the short answer questions)
Attempt one SAT paper (what are the chances of this happening?)

Yup and I started this weekend on a good note! Sleeping in till 9 with mushroom soup for breakfast? Yeah and I had my cup of steaming hot green tea since forever. Just saw the packet of black tea Cassandra and friends bought for me quite some time ago and since I don't drink black tea I'm going to transform it to ice lemon tea with lots of sugar and lemon slices. Going to get some lemons next weekend I guess. And I need to figure out how to make my peach-flavoured ceylon tea taste sweeter.

the respiration song

2011-03-29T21:33:00.002+08:00

Images from littlecalvary@tumblr.

I found a super cool cell respiration song on youtube! Now I can understand the super big huge process a little better and hopefully I can comprehend the notes in time for tomorrow's lecture T.T

H3 was fun today! I like this topic :D I'm even excited to do the tutorial (LOL nerd much) and draw all the molecules out ._.

So many tutorials not done yet and so many notes unread and so many things unmemorised. Thank goodness there's nothing on this weekend. Shall not even bother to step out of the house to mug (seeing how it almost always fails). Going to have my green tea and meditate with all my books and markers and colour pens and school foolscap paper haha.

Elections tomorrow. Kinda looking forward to it though it starts at like 4 :( Shall finish my tutorials while waiting I guess (RIGHT).

NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO THE NAPFA SEASON :( LET ME PASS MY STANDING BROADJUMP PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEEEE I DON'T WANNA DO MASS PE IN TERM 3 ARGHZX :(((

it's a quarter after one

2011-03-24T21:19:00.002+08:00

Images from ldstone@tumblr.

Totally love the song 'Need You Now' by Lady Antebellum! Their voices are like love to the max.
And it's career day tomorrow!! Though I find the prospect of going into university and working a little scary :/

Going to study Carboxylic Acids now after watching a few glee videos and have an early night.

:D

we're just ordinary people

2011-03-19T21:55:00.002+08:00

Images from revolvers@tumblr.

Getting lazier and lazier to blog. But I did have a pretty good day (almost everyday of the holiday is good actually). Shall actually give a brief about my March holidays, because it's not everyday you get to have a nice week-long holiday like this.

Saturday:
Spent the morning clearing up my table and filing all the papers and stuff. Went to the Civil Service College for the epic long PSC psychometric test. Went back and slacked my way through.

Sunday:
Church and choir in the morning, then Bugis Street shopping with Sheryl. Got a pair of black suede shoes (they are tight enough, thank goodness, because they'll expand if I wear it frequently enough and I don't want them to start falling off every time I walk out the house) which were rather painful. Dinner with Sheryl, Shuxuan, Cas, Feli and Eugene at Manhattan's Fish Market. Sheryl's dad drove me back and I saw the little cousins and also the email from Mr Wu about Econs lecture.

Monday:
Went back school for Math lecture (I UNDERSTAND OKAY) then went back for some slack time at home. Hang out with the cousins then had dinner with them and sent them off. More slack time.

Tuesday:
Went back school for H3 and did work. Slack too.

Wednesday:
Did some work and had an awesome shopping day with family. Got a pair of red flats, mom got a pair of yellow wedges, sister got a pair of maroon canvas shoes, dad got a small sling bag. Went back and slack (I think it has to do with the timing LOL).

Thursday:
Attempted to do some work in the morning (I think by Thursday my motivation went to the negative side already). Went to SMU with Yijia for the CIP briefing, pretty cool. Then went with her to the esplanade library to chill and enjoy the scenery haha. Went home and tried to catch up again, but work lost to the power of TV.

Friday:
Went to the KWSH and talked to some of the patients there. Man, my language skills clearly suck because despite the fact that I have both Hokkien and Cantonese blood I can't speak either ._. More slack.

Saturday:
Had breakfast with Mom at the market this morning and checked out the new foodcourt (I'm slow like a snail). Went back and spent 3 hours doing the GP compre (I tried VERY HARD for the summary okay. By the time I reached AQ I died already.) Went to TM to get a new phone (yay for galaxy ace and galaxy tab!!). Waited for 2.5 hours because the queue was so horrendously long :/ Came back and slacked my way through the day (even though it's a Saturday and there's no show for me to watch). Gonna sleep now I have to be early for church tomorrow.

So that's about all. I hope that my last day of holiday will be productive to some extent :( Shall attempt to finish the hydroxy compounds tutorial tomorrow T.T

keep faith

2011-03-15T18:26:00.002+08:00

Images from peanutsforlunch@tumblr.

Had a rather great day today (in terms of productivity). Woke up at 8.15 this morning and went to school for H3 (I think I got it finally) and then went home. Had instant noodles for lunch and then did a little of my carbonyl compounds tutorial (like finally). And I totally got the difference between merely reading the notes as compared to reading the notes AND doing the tutorial immediately after. Because even after reading the notes I still can't remember a lot of things :/ Yeah.

Anyway the mugging aura went off after I turned on the computer (speaking of which, my desktop died again). Shall go and watch tv and eat ice cream and then do chem/math later.

:D

it's a beautiful night

2011-03-11T23:15:00.002+08:00

Images from nathh@tumblr.

Finally the holidays are here. Really happy about it. Or at least, I think I'm happy about it. Because my dopamine pathway (or whatever that is that controls level of happiness) seems to be going a little haywire. It's like after SSEF and all that, when I know I should be feeling so happy and free but I don't. Not really. Not that kind of unlimited freedom and joy that resonates all the way down to your toes.

I still remember there was a time when I can get happy for no good reason. Feels like little bubbles of happiness going up and down in you and you just feel like laughing and smiling for everything in the world. Shall just chalk the lack of emotions (or at least, positive emotions) to fatigue and accumulated stress.

And I guess if you haven't heard yet, we got a merit for SSEF. It was a good experience I guess. The first time I entered SSEF I had a super horribly ugly poster, a really clueless brain and a lack of answering skills. This time I entered with a poster that took days and nights to finish, brain filled with information (regardless of whether it is useful or not) and lots of presentation skills that carried on after PW. I'm really proud of the fact that we did most of the work ourselves, instead of getting the award just because we have a really brilliant mentor that focuses on research, and also having great facilities to work with. The best part of it all is that Yijia's group did really well too, so it's like a cause for celebration :D

So after my two days of absence from school, I had to go back and finish just that last day to make my term 1 seem complete. I have to admit that I was feeling pretty lost (it's amazing how much you can miss both in academics and social terms just in 2 days) but time just went on ticking despite the lousy state of mind. And it kind of dawns on me that no matter how bad the situation is, you can always just close one eye and it'll still move on. Though I believe (or to put it more accurately, know) that I have a lot to catch up with.

And I actually stayed back to help out for PTM. Not that I intended to skip, but more like I keep forgetting about it between time intervals. So I got stuck with carpark duties again, and I just feel so ridiculous because my role is somewhat like telling people how to park their cars when I can't even drive ._. And the traffic was really chaotic because you don't know if they are just waiting for people or coming for PTM. But like I said, it was eventually over. Talked with Mr Lim and realised he's actually really cool. Like you know, I always have this phobia of talking to teachers of subjects that I do really badly in because I'm afraid if I say something wrong (especially for subjects like GP and Econs when things are so... obvious) they'll give you that skeptical look and probably scorn you secretly. Scary thought.

So looking at this coming holiday, it's really going to be a long one, because firstly my relatives are coming and I already had a list of activities and work lined up, so it's kinda going to disrupt my timetable. Work wise I guess I won't be doing much of it over the weekend because there wouldn't be space and also because I need to take a little break, as well as to go out and catch up with friends. Then Monday and Tuesday will be going back to school for makeup lectures and makeup lessons, Wednesday is free day, Thursday and Friday will be at SMU doing CIP (which is meaningful in a way I guess). Saturday and Sunday will be spent on SS camp and Medsoc gathering and then I'm done with CCA for the rest of the year.

I actually wanted to catch up with work (and even go a little forward) over the holidays but things just keep popping out of nowhere. So I need to work doubly hard (hopefully my motivation will fly back soon) and get more rest to recharge for Term 2. Because Mr Lim highlighted that my GP marks are having a decreasing trend :/ Shall prove him wrong next term! And also to pull my econs essay from a ranking 3 to a ranking 2 ._.

today was a gift and not a given right

2011-03-09T21:23:00.002+08:00

Images from revolvers@tumblr.

SSEF's over! So no more excuse to slack and start work nowwwwww. First hurdle to overcome will be the chem test! Looking for random organic chemistry quizzes online but to no avail. Too lazy/tired to look through tutorials (which were still mostly untouched anyway). Totally need to pick myself up during the holidays.

Just a quick run through of my holiday programmes:
sat - NUS open house and PSC psychoanalytical test
sun - church and date with sheryl
monday - break!
tuesday - H3 chem in school
wednesday - break
thursday and friday - cip at smu
saturday - ss camp
sunday - medsoc outing at ecp
monday - SCHOOL WITH 3 HOURS OF CHEM :(

I'm kinda glad to be able to miss school tomorrow actually :/ Though there's PTM ushering on friday and all. Hmm.

i want to hold your hand

2011-02-28T20:40:00.003+08:00

Images from littlecalvary@tumblr.

I love this video. The way he sings is just so sweet and sad :(

Anyway just a short post to update the world and to take a small break from work (I'm going off soon to do more of it though).

School's fine, busy as usual. Can't wait for the March holidays to come because by then SSEF will be over and I'll have lotsa time to do my work (hopefully). But right now things are going to go as quick as a crazy train so fingers crossed!

I'm going to do my Chem kinetics tutorial now. Getting so sick of Chem that I've been pushing all my tutorials aside. But I have a chem test next week so no slacking! Going to hit my 80% no matter what it takes. AND ECONS :( Test is this wednesday and I have 4 sets of notes unread. Good luck man. Shall meditate and speed read tonight/tomorrow morning/tomorrow break/after school tomorrow. And getting back H3 test tomorrow nervous much :(

But it's okay because I shall just see this as my Jericho and God will help me crush it like some sandcastle with his mighty hand! (optimism rules yeah).

Bye world and good luck for the upcoming week!

you're gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul

2011-02-24T21:33:00.002+08:00

Images from lovefumes@tumblr.

Shall hide away the previous angsty post because I'm feeling much better now (though not entirely recovered yet but I'll survive).

School's been a crazy rollercoaster this week and I'm glad to say I actually tried my best to look normal despite my moodswings inside. And it isn't half as bad once I got started on the SSEF poster. It's weird, that something you thought you hate so desperately can actually make you feel better when you're down in the dumps.

Think I'm getting the hang of math and econs now but it's still too soon to say. Going to start working on chem and gp too. I'm already planning how to make full use of the coming March holidays, mugging dates, SMU cip (I hope it's as fun as it sounds!), tidying up my cupboards and table, catching up with school work and taking my well-deserved rest.

I'm so excited for the coming Saturday I can smell it in the air. Keep thinking today/tomorrow's Saturday and I don't need to go school but sadly my brain reminded me that nope, tomorrow's Friday AND I NEEDA GO SCIENCE CENTER FOR SSEF BRIEFING :(

A few things I need to buy too: dad's birthday cake, new shoes to walk around the streets in (my high heels will just lead to my sad death in the drain) and blah.

CAN'T WAIT!

i don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity

2011-02-20T17:18:00.002+08:00

This shall be a wordy post because I'm feeling ranty and talkative and I have nowhere to vent except maybe differential equations revision package which I have no idea how to do anyway. So today was an early day for me and my resolution to actually read school-related stuff on the bus was kinda destroyed with my state of half-sleepiness. Which means I basically did nothing but drift in and out of dreamland for like approximately one hour on the bus. Choir went well I guess, though I don't really like the big fuss everybody made (because I'm shy by nature -- ha!) when I feel that I conducted really awkwardly. Thank goodness my back was facing everybody else, that's all I can say. Felt extremely drowsy during lessons too, until my mom shouted REALLY loudly in the middle of lesson because someone (guess who) is dying of menstrual cramps and I'm supposed to know that and actually fly out of class in the middle of nowhere so that we can all go home early. Like what, it's my fault that I don't have telepathy? It's my fault that I've always been staying back for choir so I never did care what time lessons end because I'll always be going home at like 2.30? What's with all the shouting right. So I went home really pissed and that made me snack a whole lot because nobody wants to cook (like what on earth, you shout at me for nothing and then let me starve cause you shouted at me. Seriously?) and now I have to worry about expanding waistlines. Then because I totally have no mood to look at work (if I have to look at things like d.e. and chem kinetics and evolution i will tear all of them up, really) I planted myself in front of the television for 1 hour because SOMEONE was napping on MY BED. Like seriously, not my fault then you don't let me sleep don't let me eat don't let me do work. And the only line I got from sermon today was 'Familiarity breeds contempt'. I mean, I love my family and all, but honestly, what's with all the tantrums thrown at me? I may be older and supposedly mature but hey, this is the time when my hormones go the craziest. So you think I don't have moods just because I've always kept quiet and refuse to argue back because I don't want to waste any energy? It's exactly times like this I wish I'm far far faaaaaaaaaar away from my family because they just suck up all that little remains of my energy. So much for weekends as energy charger. So now I need to calm myself down and threaten myself with the thought of failing math test tomorrow (though personally I don't really care) so that I can focus on differential equations (which make me look like a fool, seriously). I may even consider going through integration techniques again (God knows how bad my integration is, really) but then again maybe there's no time. And then I realised it's already Sunday and there's a whole week of crap coming up. Going down the lab everyday, 2 tests in a week, not finishing my tutorials and zoning out through every lecture. I wonder what all these is for.

it takes two

2011-02-16T22:40:00.002+08:00

Images from thebottomofthecoffeecup@tumblr.

School's been another mad whirlwind today. Despite being so energetic and blah from the much needed sleep last night, my fuel was quickly killed halfway through Econs lecture. No doubt that he was an interesting lecturer, but I believe somehow my brain has caught the undisclosed virus that has been floating around in school and forced my eyelids to droop. Add that to a Bio lecture which I totally don't understand, seeing how my mind is conditioned to switch off whenever it sees masses of words, and you can understand why a hyperactive person can just totally deflate within a few hours. I must say that the assembly programme was better than expected, and I am totally surprised by the fact that I understood his message and didn't even think of dozing off throughout that 1 hour. In fact, I feel super motivated to work hard at discussing serious issues like politics and economics (though I'm sure that will be gone within 2 days) and also to do well for 'A's, not that I was planning to do otherwise of course.

Then it was intensive lab session in the afternoon and despite our careful efforts, it's still virtually impossible for the proteins to run till the 8.5 kDa mark. Judging by the marker, it somewhat died at 25kDa and then started leaking out 2 minutes after, which is disastrous of course. Add that to an extremely fail 2 hour transfer session in which the powerpac decided to backstab us and short circuited halfway, lab session wasn't as fun and smooth going as expected. And I believe that the incubator is still not fixed, so I have no idea how to actually do up our flow cytometry within 2 weeks.

I guess while getting into SSEF is a good thing, it also means a super crazily intense increase in workload. After 2 hours of effort on PowerPoint, I only managed to come up with a skeletal structure of the poster (you have no idea how tough it is to scale the text boxes, seriously). Add that to more analysis of ELISA results (lots and lots of number), plus a few more (hopefully successful) attempts at Western Blot and a round of flow cytometry (which I didn't exactly have the best experience the last time), doing up the logbook, doing up the poster... And you get an extremely stressed out brain. Add that extremely long list of urgent to-dos to two upcoming tests next week which yours truly have not even read through the notes once, I feel majorly gone :(

Shall put all my faith in God and He will bless me with the wisdom and strength to plow through my thick mountain of work!

Here's just a summary (for myself) of what I'm going to do the next few days:
tomorrow (thursday)

western blot
school
read vectors 1 and 2 notes and do vectors 2 tutorial

friday

vectors 2 tutorial
maths revision package 2 DE/GT

saturday

ssef meeting to do poster, logbook and analyse results :(
chingay group lunch!
maths revision package 2 DE/GT
organisation and control of genome in prokaryotes and eukaryotes (LOL) notes and tutorial

sunday

church
choir
evolution notes and tutorial

SIGH :( Such a long post.

someday you will be loved

2011-02-13T21:16:00.002+08:00

Images from littlecalvary@tumblr.

Yayness tomorrow's Friendship day! Took a nap and went to NTUC after dinner to buy all the sweets and stuff. Then packed and packed and drank strawberry green tea from sweet talk (: And I did the Econs worksheet! So proud of myself now. Then came online and talked and stalked pretty girls on FB (that I know la okay haha). Shall go pack my bag and sleep early tonight and have an awesome day tomorrowwww (:

Dental tomorrow. I SHALL CHOOSE BLUE AGAIN CAUSE IT LOOKS NICE ON ME. Or at least, nicer than the other colours :D haha. Or maybe red?

the sun shines blue

2011-02-13T00:35:00.002+08:00

Images from wildhearts@tumblr.

The random list:
- For my hair to grow long again
- To buy nice pants and pretty tops during June holidays
- To buy marshmallows for friends tomorrow
- Lunch date with Chingay people next Saturday
- GP test is over
- To cut my nails the minute they grow long enough
- To see my clothes clean of mud
- To buy more covered shoes and flats
- To take out braces
- To have my voice back
- To do well for 'A's
- To get a nice H3 teacher next term
- MacDonald's Samurai Beef Burger and Bistro Chicken Sandwich
- A one week holiday
- Homa CIP to go well
- Pretty headbands
- Cheesecake
- Fresh bread
- Starbucks
- Sleep

Goodnight all! Will post video of Chingay fireworks if I remember! ): Shall print some nice songs and play/sing when my voice recovers too. Watch out!

all i ever wanted was for you to be here for me

2011-02-09T18:50:00.002+08:00

Images from trainmaker@tumblr.

Feeling like a happy girl today for no good reason (: Even though school is tiring and my muscles are aching everywhere (from PE yesterday I bet), I feel really really at peace and relaxed today. Shall move off to watch TV before starting on my huge pile of work :O Looking forward to the weekends to be done with Chingay and all.

So if you're wondering, I'm fine and all (why wouldn't I be?). School's tiring as usual, my meds are almost finished, my voice is coming back and I think after a few more days of rest I'm able to sing.

I even got to have a nice long chat with Joceline yesterday (our plan to study in the homeroom backfired while we wait for H3). And then we celebrated my mom's birthday in advance with steamboat (a lot of good food and I'm so crazy stuffed) so now I'm left with studying for Chem and GP test this week.

Need to get some extra work done before finding teachers for consultations. I mean it's high time I do things like that right? But how to consult when I have nothing to ask (okay I have a few maths questions but I think there are more to come, after I finish both maths revision packages).

And all my ten year series and textbooks are just sitting on my shelf collecting dust. I shall do something about them soon too ):

can you hear me

2011-02-06T14:56:00.003+08:00

Images from xcollision@tumblr.

Yay happy CNY everyone! This is so lag but I'm still in the cny mood~ I'm ready for lessons though (after I finish my homework)! Feel so relaxed and free to do lotsa things I've been missing out on, like quiet time and homeworking and just the random texting every now and then.

Backlogged 85 pages of Tumblr. Don't think I'll be queuing things though, 'cause we're going to my aunt's house later and I'm going to bring my maths revision package to do -grins- I died cause I don't know how to do substitution for DE ._. And I'm going to do my bio tutorial (for once, no more copying answers during tutorials!) and chem tutorial some other time, maybe tomorrow. And Irene stole my chem prac so I can't do ahemz.

Anyway just a random thought: I did my GP homework! And I found out that China actually banned Alice's Adventures in Wonderland (or something like that) because the animals were characterized such that they are on the same complexity as humans. HELLO? Best reason I've seen actually lol.

And I'm really really hoping my voice comes back soon cause I wanna sing next week!~~

P.S. My blog posts are sounding more and more like a little kid's! Excuse me while I find both my voice AND my witticism back.

did you make it count

2011-02-02T14:55:00.001+08:00

Images from incessantlove@tumblr.

This year's CNY doesn't feel like CNY. I guess since nobody's coming and so we didn't buy all the CNY goodies so it just made me felt like I'm having a nice long holiday. And the fact that my voice is as tiny as a midget doesn't help.

But nevertheless, I hope you guys will have a good CNY! (Mine was somewhat dampened by some people :/)

Going to Malaysia right after reunion dinner so don't bother contacting me (because Singtel might just eat up all my messages again). I'll be back on Saturday, probably about evening!

I really really want my voice to recover so that I can sing on Sunday! No more talking from now on, seriously.

i'm scared to say goodbye

2011-01-30T19:32:00.003+08:00

Images from starliight@tumblr.

10 things I would like to do now:
- gorge on CNY goodies (but just finished dinner so.... fail.)
- surf youtube all night
- lounge on the sofa and read a brainless book
- sleep
- tumblr tumblr tumblr
- draw
- watch tv and kill my brain
- shop
- play bejewelled for 2 hours straight
- talk and talk and talk on msn

But the only 1 thing I should be doing now:
- HALOGENOALKANES :(

Okay and a lot more but uh, Chem comes first.

And not forgetting the H3 test on Tuesday which I haven't study for. Along with a really messy table with papers everywhere.

Happy CNY.

not everybody is going to leave you

2011-01-29T16:43:00.002+08:00

Images from stowedaway@tumblr.

I'm a happy girl today because it's the first weekend I get to spend slacking at home (:

Went for Medsoc CIP this morning and it was quite and eye-opener. Made me reflect a lot about what I currently have and what I can do for others. Had lunch with Medsoc girls at NEX. First time having Wendy's and I think it isn't really worth the money. Shall bring mom and dad to Popeye's next time instead.

So anyway, I woke up kind of early this morning to go CIP with Karen but we ended up reaching too early so we went hunting for breakfast. Lo and behold, we found Breadtalk just opening and the bread were all fresh from the oven. So we had hot crispy bread for breakfast and it was absolute blisssssss :D

I reached Tampines at about 2.30 after CIP and saw Zoe! Then went home and rushed to my mom's friend's house because I wanted to layer my hair a little. (It's a different one this time.) Then her friend says my hair's too short already so wait a little more before she can layer nicely. Made me rush all the way there and they were still having their aunty chitchat session haha.

But my napping plan was ruined because by the time I showered it was about 3+ going 4 so I went online and browsed through Tumblr blah, doing the usual things.

It's 5 now and I'm going to catch up on 2 whole weeks' worth of homework. Let's make a list:

Bio notes + tutorial + practical
Halogenoalkanes notes + tutorial + Kinetics notes + a bit of tutorial + mindmap
Vectors 1, 2, 3 notes + Vectors 1, 2 tutorial + Differentiation & Integration revision package (optional) + Go through DE again (optional)
Econs Chapter 2 notes + tutorial
GP arts notes + paper 2 notes

My to-do list for this weekend.

Dinner time!

you wouldn't do the same

2011-01-22T18:12:00.002+08:00

Lovely images from revolvers@tumblr!

I'm running out of time to resize them so they shall stay as big as they are (:

Just a short post before I go down to Dhoby Ghaut to meet my sunday school class for dinner! (Oh yeah Kerryn if you're reading this I'm going down 'cause of YOU okay. LOL.) And the greatest news is that I have 59 more Differentiation and Integration questions to plow through before the maths test this Monday (first period). Plus I'm still doing my Vectors 1 tutorial because me being me, dislike hanging homework especially when the teachers are already zooming past the chapters :O

Going to meet the MOF team tonight and discuss our strategy (in other words, get our script done). I'm crossing both fingers that we'll get through the preliminary round! Though the other teams are reaaaaaaaally strong but I'm sure we'll do well too (:

Had Chingay training this morning and basically it was just sitting in the hall listening to people. Imagine sitting on the floor cross-legged for a few hours in a row. My legs can't even stand 20 minutes because it starts cramping up and I'll have to shift into all sorts of weird positions. Which makes me extremely glad for chairs and sofas and beds in general!

So here are just some of the things I need to get done by this weekend (on top of everything else):

GP snippets (I give GP priority because I need to majorly improve this subject)
Look through Econs tutorial (optional because at least I finished the notes... ahem.)
Maths revision package (I have a feeling I can only finish half of it but I'll try. Really.)
Vectors 1 tutorial (MUST FINISH TONIGHT. I'm feeling all the peer pressure setting in when people are comparing how much work they have completed and I'm like, 'I did 2 questions'.)
Look through Bio notes (shall tell my brain to stop switching off during Bio lectures because seriously, it's horrible when you don't understand a thing and you keep drifting in between consciousness and unconsciousness.)
MOF script (I shall activate my brain and try to finish this as soon as possible! No more 12.30am bedtime on weekdays please.)

I think I somewhat covered everything. It's a lot but I'm going to try my best! SHALL STARE AT VECTORS NOW.

knockout

2011-01-19T00:06:00.002+08:00

Images from poignant@tumblr.

I know my blog has been left dead for quite a while and people were asking about it. So, in answer to the 'how are you' question, I'm fine, just really really busy and really really tired. Which I'll briefly fill you guys in so that you all will be prepared for how J2 life is like (or at least for people like me).

1. SSEF report

Basically, we spent the 3 precious days of orientation slogging in the lab to rush out some results for the report. It was really fun working with everyone but also very mentally stressful. Especially for a neat freak like me, seeing things lying all around the place is just painful. But now that it's over, I'm just very glad to have wonderful people in my group who are willing to rush it out with me (: So here's just one lesson to learn: always buy your materials early and finish your experiment early.

2. MOF Budget Challenge

I signed up for this unknowingly because I thought it would be some simple competition that I can have some fun in. Furthermore, I thought that the chances of me getting in is like close to 0 because of all the good speakers/smart students in the programme. But partly because of the many draw outs, I'm in. I will not say that I find it engaging and all that, because my econs grade is seriously horrendous and I'm not all that into politics. And I must admit that the going is tough and I'm having some trouble managing my homework (which I'm rushing through during break times so it's fine). However, the satisfaction of finishing something as a team is really great, and I guess I will not go through the thrill of working as a team as much in the later part of the year, seeing how 'A' levels is mainly an individual thing. Just a little update: We finished the second draft tonight! -applause-

3. Chingay 2011

I honestly have no idea why I signed up for this. Maybe it's because holidays just bore me so much that I wanted something else to do during the school term (before I realised I have so many other things to do), maybe because my CCA records need serious polishing because all that hours devoted to MSO is not counted, maybe because I've never attended a single Chingay parade before. But whatever the reason, I just can't wait to get it over and done with (thankfully it's in February) because there are so many other things I need to focus on. And though I'm a little resentful over the fact that my Saturdays are now eaten away, I am super glad that there are so many Dunmanians joining this event and I'm not going through it alone. Plus I made a few friends in my ushering group, which is always a plus point. Update: next saturday will be a full on training for the entire day, and we'll be having a walkthrough nearer the date. I can't wait to see all the pretty carriages!

4. School

Seeing how the excitement of orientation has a slackening effect on people (which I didn't attend), most people probably find going back to school mundane and stressful. But because I've been well-trained these few days and am somewhat accustomed to high stress levels, I find that sitting in class listening to teachers talking is actually very enjoyable. With the exception of not finishing my homework, I find that the whole studying experience is really relaxing (as compared to other things). Even sitting in class finishing my Chem tutorial during breaks doesn't seem as a chore, in fact I couldn't wait to finish eating quickly and rush back to do whatever I have not done. Finishing my homework and understanding in class makes me feel really accomplished somehow, because the goal is so much easier to achieve. And everything is in black and white, which I like (:

So that's about my life in 2011. Not enough sleep, irregular meals, rushing madly here and there, panicking about homework... Somewhat a typical student life. But I'm trying to enjoy it, because one day I'll look back and marvel at myself for pulling through all this and wanting to have the energy to rush through everything again. So just make the best out of everything and you will find satisfaction.

This is probably going to be stagnant for sometime as I stagger through mountains of homework and competition stress, so here's wishing you guys all the best for your studies and other commitments you're handling, and do take care! (Unlike what I've been doing to myself).

Goodnight!

school reopens

2011-01-10T22:29:00.002+08:00

Photo taken from Joceline's FB.

Anyway! School reopens today (not that I haven't been going back to school before that) and it was great to see everyone again, especially the girls! It feels really great to be talking to them and laughing over the most epic things (including my hair) and having lunch together :D

So our homeroom's on the first floor this year, not that we'll be using much of it. And we had our first GP lecture (it's like 1.5 hours now :/) and first maths lecture (which is vectors part 1/4) and first chem tutorial of the year. I like our Chem teacher, mainly because she feels really friendly and patient and she's like really cute and enthusiastic. And I'm hoping that the rest of the class likes her so that our Chem lessons will be really fun for the rest of the year.

Went to the lab today and realised that the incubator's still spoilt so there's nothing we can do. Waited for Yijia to finish preparing her immunofluorescence stuff and did my homework in the lab (I finished the Chem worksheet given today but not the holiday homework given weeks ago ._.) and went home with her. It was raining and cold and we were like hungry monsters so we ate at Kembangan mrt (like what me and Denise and Kang used to do after band!) and talked a whole lot on our way home. Funny how our conversations are always so somber and emo but still super fun to talk about, but yup it's cool!

Not really looking forward to tomorrow cause there's PE first period :O And I seriously wonder what we're going to do because I hope it's not going to be worse than mass pe (which from what I heard is like doing all these really weird suicide exercises and running rounds WHICH I TOTALLY CAN'T DO). And I hope I don't get a heart attack when I find out who's my Bio teacher tomorrow :(

Okay so that's just about me and my boring day. And I really really hope my hair grows out soon so I can tie it up :(

if i have to write a letter to myself...

2011-01-09T16:26:00.000+08:00

You are such a self-centered bitch. Do something about it.

Love, me.

you're a firework

2011-01-07T22:09:00.003+08:00

Images from stowedaway@tumblr.

4th day of lab this week and counting.

The worst part of lab is not dragging yourself awake to squeeze with everyone else on the train, not wearing the latex gloves and hate the smell of your hands, not even cleaning up the lab after everybody (and you'll be surprised when you see how 18-year-olds can't throw their gloves and rubbish into the bin when they are done with it).

The worst part is doing something for 3 days straight and then not getting any results. And when I say 3 days, I mean 3 full days that starts at 8 and ends at 7. (You can discount that half hour we take to dawdle to school sometimes but still.)

Even Mr Tay whom I managed to pass by these few days asked what I'm doing in school everyday when school isn't open yet.

So yeah, basically that's how depressing my life has been the past few days. And it's only the start of 2011! To which I can only say, good luck to myself. I mean, it's so bad that I have to spend orientation DOING MY REPORT. Really.

But anyway, one happy thing that happened today (because after an entire day doing depressing things even small stuff like this counts as an 'up' event). My baby's back! Like about 2pm today and I'm like so over the moon~

Anyway, it's 10.22pm and I'm about to sleep because I have to meet Kenneth at 7.45am tomorrow. Go figure.

Plus the fact that I haven't finish half of my GP homework and it's due in 2 days' time (along with quite a bit of maths which is supposedly due about then too).

Goodnight world!

but i know there's no way we're around here again

2011-01-03T23:02:00.002+08:00

Images from passengerseats@tumblr.

Today's been a pretty fun day! Overslept and woke up at 9+ to go HP to get my laptop fixed (which is pretty serious considering how my darling's gonna spend a few nights there :/) and had breakfast at the Tiong Bahru area. Helped my mom bought her CNY clothes! Pretty cool stuff, finally found something she likes after shopping all these while. Bought my dad's clothes last night too (I chose them okay! Cool much.) and now our CNY clothes are done.

Came back home after breakfast/HP trip and made an appointment with my mom's friend who's a hairdresser. Apparently she's the not-so-detailed hairdresser friend because the more-detailed one's busy. But yeah basically I chopped a lot of my hair off and look like a hot (h)air balloon now. Please don't laugh when you see me, that's all I ask :(

Met Jane to go chalet together and we ended up watching Avatar while waiting for the rain to stop. Then had the BBQ and ate lots (or so it seems because I'm hungry now) and wanted to go eat ice creams BUT EVERYBODY'S DELAYING EVERYBODY so I ended up going home seeing that everything's closed -.-

So yeah, it's been a pretty fun day and it's only going to go downhill from now. But no worries, I'm able to go through fire and water and come out undamaged (metaphorically) so here's to the many more days of mental torture I'm going to undergo, i.e. LAB SESSIONS :(

Please pray hard that we'll get our results soon so that we can finish our report on time for SSEF submission!

Goodnight everyone~

keep calm and carry on

2011-01-02T23:08:00.003+08:00

Images from xcollision@tumblr.

Yayness I love these pictures (L) haha! So now that I've kick started 2011 life's going to be busy like a beeee from now onwards. Let me show you my schedule for the first 2 weeks of January:

3rd - 2k chalet
4th - career workshop + 2k chalet
5th-8th - lab
9th - church
10th-12th - orientation + lab
13th - school + lab
14th - school + ssef report due
15th - ??? mugging for SATS probably
16th - church

AND THAT'S JUST THE FIRST 2 WEEKS.

I hope I survive this. Really.

Anyway I want to cut my hair to just slightly above the shoulders BUT WHY NOBODY FREE TO HELP ME CUT MY HAIR HUH :( So I have to like bear with my unbearably long hair with its tangles and everything. Well.

Going to Alexandra Road to get my laptop fixed and then have breakfast on the way -.- Then meet Jane in the afternoon to go chalet and ASK NIC HOW TO DO MATHS :( My life's so sad that I have to do homework in a CLASS CHALET. Wow~

Goodnight everyone!

you are what you create

2011-01-01T10:43:00.002+08:00

Images from starliight@tumblr.

Happy 2011 everyone! Even though it didn't feel like a new year to me but I hope it does to you (: Or at least, you'll start off the year with a good note.

Spent the morning finishing up my maths paper (which is only 1 question so don't think that I've been super hardworking or anything lol!) and now online surfing youtube and tumblr and checking out blogs I've not checked for a long time. If you're free and you like fashion stuff, please do check this out!

I'm so excited about meeting Sheryl later because we're going to have desserts at Ikea (hopefully)! And there's lots for us to catch up on so I can't wait~

Did I mention my french manicure yesterday totally failed? Shall clear it tonight before I scare everyone else with the failure of it all.

this is for those who wait

2010-12-30T11:42:00.002+08:00

Images from poignant@tumblr.

Came back from church camp last night (:

It was pretty fun, and I learnt quite a few things. Like, accepting people for who they are even though it's really REALLY hard and all that.

Went back to school for SS too and things were like ._. And I realised I have lots of homework to do so I'll needa go off soon to rush them out.

Hopefully I can finish all 3 maths papers today and learn my differentiation/integration.

Did I mention my sister got me a french manicure kit? (: Though I have no idea how to use it but well~

Shall do maths now!

GP is soooo dead ):

but hey, i guess that love wasn't enough

2010-12-24T19:41:00.004+08:00

Images from poignant@tumblr.

Went back to school this morning! I think our bradford assay went quite well, though it's quite funny what other groups did! Apparently the term 'triplicate' is too much haha. Had a fun morning (albeit sleepy) messing around with pipette tips and all. Headed back home and found that the atmosphere's kinda weird :/ So uhm yeah tried using a bit of my lousy humour but everybody just ignored me -.- Well well.

Went out with Jane in the afternoon and had Starbucks while doing maths, of all things. And something happened in between that was so fail me and Jane feel like ._. a million times over. Went to the supermarts to get candy canes AND FOUND THAT THEY WERE ALL SOLD OUT. Honestly! NTUC, Cold storage, NTUC finest, Cheers blah, ALL SOLD OUT! And I was like !!!! NOOOO !!!!! at this rather shocking situation so yeah you know, RAH. (I realise I use a lot of emoticons and weird sounds to show how I feel instead of using proper words, oh man.) Went home to rush Christmas cards and all that. SHALL DO MATHS NOW I FEEL SO :( :( AT EVERYTHING.

Talked to people and realised how lucky I am. That my problems are at most shallow, like homework and how annoying some people are and family wars. Okay fine, maybe not that shallow, but me being me have a way of putting things to the back of the mind and not think about them because thinking about them scares me to death. And saw some stuff on my way home that made me even more thankful than ever. It's true that one will never be satisfied when one thinks about what they don't have. You will only feel that you're the happiest person on earth when you count what you have and are contented with who you are. See, rare wisdom from me.

I'm going to have dinner soon and do maths and keep all stray thoughts out of mind.

then you'll never know

2010-12-21T21:35:00.002+08:00

Lab was fun today! I saw lots and lots of cells~ And I realised exactly how fail we are when it comes to cell culturing. Crossing my fingers and hoping they survive the week! Went for lunch with Yijia Cherise and Kenneth and went home with Yijia~ Shopped around Tampines and saw a lot of nice bags at the pasar malam but after much consideration I DECIDE TO NOT BUY ANY -.- Shall save money for next shopping spree! I used to have a few hundreds as savings and now I'm left with $0 so yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. Will aim to save up to about $300 before I go mad and buy lots of stuff again -.-

Excited about lab session tomorrow! Going to challenge the cells then head down to A*star then go to church for practice (I haven't even see the scores oh man) so I SHALL SLEEP EARLY TONIGHT.

putting things into perspective

2010-12-20T23:35:00.002+08:00

Alright, so tonight marks the end of my 9-days long holiday and I'm going to do some housekeeping myself. To-do lists and what not.

Tomorrow:

get new toothbrush
find time to cut hair
clean nail polish
go lab
finish gp compre
do up calendar! (all the events like sojourn and orientation and church camp etc)
sleep early (I stayed up to backlog tumblr okay 197 pages!!)

I'm kinda happy and excited to see my groupmates again. And even more excited for the year to come 'cause I'm trying to get some cool stuff going for the class. Plus CNY's coming and there's good food + pretty clothes + holidays!

But I have holiday homework to clear first.

malaysia trip!

2010-12-20T17:58:00.002+08:00

I am very sorry to say that this post will be an extremely wordy one with no pictures (because I'm very lazy to take/upload that few photos I actually took). So here goes.

Day 01 - The Beginning of Mozzie Epicness
We set off pretty early, like about 9am and arrived at my aunt's house at about 2pm. Slacked around, fed my little cousin (who is extremely naughty, if I may add) and went shopping. Went to GM Klang which is this big one-storey thing (and apparently the largest wholesale retailer in KL) and got a dress! Went to Aeon, the large shopping mall next to it, and shopped around. The Padini Collection there is (Y) because they have a lot of stuff and it's relatively cheap too (cause of all the sales). Bought a pair of shoes at the Summit (which carries pretty cool stuff actually). Went back and had a mini birthday celebration and my cousins (5 of them) were fighting to put all the candles without the thing you stick at the bottom. Which obviously resulted in wax ON the cake but it's okay because skilful me, somehow managed to get the wax out haha. And I will not mention how the little kids were so excited that they actually put 19 candles on it and how my uncle got my name wrong AGAIN. But it's okay because it's actually pretty funny and all.

Day 02 - The Crazy Travel
Drove to Penang with the 2 annoying cousins aboard so I chose to slept my way through. Took about 5 hours inclusive of breaks and all that. Went on this ferry tour and saw many cool seasonal birds (obviously with binoculars). The tour guide was extremely nice too, and pointed out lots of cool stuff for us to see/do. The wind was awesome and all, and the price was reasonable too. Went for dinner at some fishy place (which is famous for its fried fish I think) and everything was fish. My aunts were discussing about how that place is like their old house (it's really kind of dark and run down if you're thinking we went to some high class place). Slept at some bungalow homestay there and shared a room with my sister and my cousin. I SLEPT ON THE FLOOR OKAY. The place was kind of clean so I'm okay with it. You should have seen some of the places we stayed at before, they had all sorts of creepy crawlies and you can see me glaring at them every so often.

Day 03 - The Bottomless Pits
Ate crazy much! Went for breakfast at a nearby coffeeshop by ourselves and then went for beef noodles nearby when my aunt and uncle came to meet us. Then we went to Penang Islad by ferry (meaning the cars go onto the ferry) but the waiting time was crazy. The wind and view made up for it though. Lunch was fried kwayteow which was apparently famous and closes at 3pm so we rushed there just in time. Had 1.5 plates (which is actually a lot :/). Headed over to some floral fair which I wasn't too interested in 'cause I was attacked by mosquitoes and all. Went to the Sun Yat Sen memorial hall which has really cool sculptures in it! Totally worth that RM5 LOL. Then we went to this aquarium, the fishes were boring but there were puppies and kittens and parrots and rabbits and all. AND EVEN SNAKES (yikes!). I think I love cats (even though they always give you that turned up nose and aloof attitude but oh well). Dinner was a random mix of sushi, satay and ice lemon tea! I think ice lemon tea is totally becoming my new favourite drink lol. Drove back and got stuck in a jam 'cause there was an accident on the highway between a big truck and a bus. Went back to the homestay to sleep (and I slept on the floor, again).

Day 04 - Visiting the 6-Years-Ago Memory
We last went Langkawi 6 years ago (and the photos we took were on display on my parents' bedstand, I looked hideous). Anyway, we woke up late and had breakfast and waited at my aunt's mother-in-law's house. Travelled to Kedah to take the ferry to Langkawi which was actually more waiting. Though I spent the waiting time trying to scold my cousins because they fight whenever they see each other (tough life much?). Went onto the ferry and got onto the upper deck to enjoy the sea breeze (I never did get bored of the sea view) despite the fact that it was 'for crew only'. Climbed onto this ladder to look further and it was even better! Got off like 2 hours later and waited more for my aunt and mom to rent the car and settle our lodging etc. Reached the hotel (some 2 star hotel next to a mall) and put our stuff there before going to dinner. Dinner was at a nearby coffeeshop which we ate while watching old HK dramas on the tv there. Showered and went to explore the shops in the shopping mall which were closing -.- Went to the night market and bought some accessories (happy happy lols).

Day 05 - Even More Waiting
Went to the Langkawi Cable Car and experienced racial discrimination -.- Because my cousins don't have the equivalent of our ezlink card along so they had to pay foreigner price (which is RM 20) while my aunts and uncles paid RM 15 (after RM 15 discount because they had their ICs). And apparently the counter staff gave the discount to some other Malay family without them having to take out their identification cards. So my uncles went to lodge a complaint and we waited like 1 hour plus for them. My grandma and my aunt's mother-in-law didn't quite get it so we were telling them how 5 kids x RM15 = RM75 which is a lot! Plus racial discrimination is like !@#$%^. But ya anyway we went in the end and had to climb down many many steps to reach this bridge in mid-air and climb back up which was crazy exercise. Had chicken rice for lunch and it was expensive like mad too (tourist place what to do -.-) and went to the Underwater World that has penguins, seals, jellyfishes, sea cucumbers etc. The penguins were really adorable but as I said, I wasn't too interested in fishes -.- Like what's so interesting about them they can't talk, they can only stare at you and they are not even furry. Shopped the duty free stores nearby and bought some chocolates. Went to the new hotel (3 star this time) and showered and shopped the duty free stores in town and bought MORE chocolates (so scary). My uncle bought lots of wine and alcohol stuff. Felt so good shopping without little kids haha. Though I do not enjoy sharing a bed with my sister -.-

Day 06 - Many Sea Breezes
Went to take a yatch out to sea and explored the Lake of the Pregnant Maiden (had to climb forever to reach the lake okay -.-). Fought the monkeys there and rented a solar boat that requires paddling with the feet for 30minutes. TOTALLY NOT FUN WITH ANNOYING COUSINS RAHHH. Climbing back up immediately just totally killed me (see, I do exercise a lot when I'm overseas). The yatch guy then brought us to some other beach with more monkeys (the monkeys are super violent, I kid you not). Went out to sea again to see eagles feeding. Reached land and went back to town for lunch (more shopping!). Took the ferry back to mainland and had dinner at Alor Star (which is this very very northern part of Malaysia) with my uncle's in-laws. Slept at my uncle's brother-in-law's house and they were super hospitable (that's what I like about Malaysians, really) because we wasted a lot of time waiting for the cousins so we changed our itinery.

Day 07 - BACK HOME
Went to Penang to get our clothes from my aunt's mother-in-law's house and had lunch with them at a restaurant nearby. Went to Bukit Merah (which was like a mini resort + theme park place) and went to the Orang Utan island! The baby orang utan is cute to the max! Then we went skycycling and I had to hand-cycled my mom around for 200m while she's screaming because we were in mid-air -.- Tired much! Then went on the chairlift and had an overview of the entire place which looks kind of fun! Drove back to grandma's house which was in the middle part of Malaysia so that was like 4 hours gone. Had dinner at one of the rest stops on the way back.

Day 08 - Shopping~
Went to the morning market to get breakfast and then my uncle brought us to the wholesale city @ KL (WHICH WAS CLOSED BECAUSE ITS A SUNDAY). Had lunch at this HK cafe underground and it was really satisfying! Shopped more at the malls there and it was crazy because there were so many people but the things there were crazy ex (like how can you throw $100 here and there for a few pieces of cloth?). It's like Malaysian version of Orchard Road lol. Went to Petaling Jaya which is another tourist trap so we didn't get anything. Rushed back to some boutique near my grandma's house and got 2 dresses! Had dinner nearby and slept.

Day 09 - Hi Singapore!
Had breakfast with my uncle and drove back home!! Changed the bedsheets, unpacked, showered and sat in front of the computer UNTIL NOW. Still checking Tumblr though :(

So that's about my holidays! And my mosquito casualty count went up to 30 I think (inclusive of old scars). Plus I gained 1kg in 9 days so I totally need to excerise~~

narnia + shopping with sheryl!

2010-12-11T21:19:00.002+08:00

Today was fun! Woke up and attempted maths but majorly failed because I don't know why I couldn't find what I wanted to find in the binomial notes and I'm highly convinced someone bewitched my notes so that I can't find it -.- Shall rush my maths homework when I'm back and since my GP homework is still lying in the lab getting CO2 poisoning I'll do it with the logbook in the lab -.- (oh no what an ugly emoticon but I can't help it, it's totally how I'm feeling right now).

Met Sheryl at Bugis because her briefing ended early so we sat outside the cinema talking for 2 hours (so hard to pass the time!) then went to buy food before the movie started. Narnia was good! I love the furry lion hahaha so so soooo furry. And I kept thinking Lucy was Susan (they looked so different from the first movie) and she's really very pretty! But okay it was a good film so do watch it if you have the chance!

Went back to Tampines and caught the bus to Ikea only to find they ran out of corkboards -.- So we had a hotdog bun there and bused back to shop the pasar malam haha. Sheryl got me my birthday present from the clique (thanks girls!) and it was 3 really pretty dresses which I'm going to keep for CNY (so I'll remember you all during CNY yeaaaaah) and wear with the heels I bought yesterday. So I'm like one very hyper happy girl!

Had dinner with her at Kopitiam and it was fish noodles which was very very healthy alright! I ate all my vegetables (don't stare at me like that) and had sliced fish so to make up for all the unhealthy food I had for lunch.

My mom's in a mood for some reason but I reckon she'll be fine tomorrow and I'm fearing all the mosquitoes I'm going to meet on my trip there :( 8 whole days of shorts and t-shirts and looking like a complete mess. I'm not going to bring my homework though, they'll either get lost or torn or something. Going to recharge myself, do some quality shopping, eat quality food and come back chionging the science project + homework!

Okay tv time~

shopping + mugging day!

2010-12-10T19:33:00.002+08:00

LOL okay I kept thinking I haven't update my blog since the post about Science Focus but I realised I did. And it was about shopping -.- So well today, I am going to... continue about shopping (sorry la it's a girl thing).

Met Jane at 10.45 this morning to go do maths but all the shops are closed so we walked into Times (how intellectual right) and was looking at all the STATIONERY there. And we found the SAT book but apparently my mom's card can only get 10% discount so maybe we'll check out Popular when we're back.

Went to do maths and got sunburnt within 1 hour so we decided to just go and shop (like so fail but nevermind haha). Had lunch at Macs and it was crowded to the max. I've no idea how people can stand eating in such a crowded environment but that's the last time I'll eat there during lunch/dinnertime haha.

Me and Jane bought a pair of heels in T1 today! Mine was white and hers was black and it was really super super pretty. Plus it's only $15 so we were like, happy to zee maxxxxx~ Then we went to Century Square after lunch and ended up at Aries. Jane bought some ribbon clips and I bought a pair of earrings and pink polka dotted ribbon clips too. Then we went to shop the pasar malam beside the mrt and saw a lot of nice stuff. Excited much! Plus they'll be staying there till the 23rd so I can come back and buy whatever I like after the Malaysia trip (just in case the things in Malaysia are cheaper then yknow... THOUGH I DOUBT SO).

So here's a few things I saw and I wanted to buy:
- slingbag that costs $25
- handbag (imitation agnes b or something I can't remember) that costs $12.90
- dresses (2 for $20 at T1 and 1 for $10 at the pasar malam) which I didn't try in case I go into the spiral of doom and you'll see me stuck there for hours.

Happy much. Plus I just painted my nails and because my left hand is so inept my right hand looks pretty epic failed now. Super uneven and all. Rahh.

december's shopping list!

2010-12-09T22:05:00.002+08:00

Images from poignant@tumblr.

I will learn the lyrics of "If I Die Young" by The Band Perry tonight! That song's been playing nonstop in my mind the entire day and it's irritating because I only know the chorus -.-

But anyway, I know you guys are sick of my shopping lists but whatever, lol. Anyway this list is the stuff I'm going to really truly get this month! (And if I don't, watch me turn grumpy.)

(Part of this are my birthday presents which people told me they have bought/going to buy oh well I'm still equally excited so nevermind :D)

- Necklace (or some accessories, I'm not sure) from Diva
- Heels from New Look (getting it on Saturday with Sheryl!!)
- Dessert from Ikea (this totally counts because you still need to pay right hahaha)
- Narnia with Sheryl
- Starbucks with Jane (PEPPERMINT MOCHA) when I'm back and we're going on mug trip -.-
- SAT book
- Dress/tanktop/anything nice I see tomorrow if we go Bugis Street (my birthday present to myself!)
- Bagpack/casual handbag from Thailand next week
- New Year clothes
- Sandals (if I see any nice ones in KL because mine are getting so epic fail)

And my dad told me I'm not getting allowance these few weeks because we're going overseas -.- EMO TTM.

Meeting Jane tomorrow to chiong maths homework (a bit fail ah but nevermind) and to look at the SAT books my mom said were in TIMES/Popular and then maybe going to Bugis to get her earrings/my dress or something! Happiness~ LOL.

bored to zee max

2010-12-07T20:25:00.002+08:00

Went to NUS this morning for Science Focus! And all the reliant people wanted to meet me and Jane because they didn't know how to get there -.- (Okay I'm not much better but at least I know where we're supposed to go/what bus to take lol). Took the bus together (oh yeah school togetherness yeah) and saw this really huge group of HC people which further diminished the number of people we have from our school lol. But well, small group is fun!

Had lectures the entire day and we were sitting at the last row and I was playing Sudoku because I don't get some of the lectures. Though I must say some of the lecturers were really good and have a very good sense of humour (better than mine even). And there was this Physics guy talking about Nanoscience who came to our school before! Used the same ice trick haha.

It was pretty fun sitting there with Jane the whole day even though we were kind of bored and sleepy (but we made up for it with my notebook) and laughing at the weird stuff people said. Though lunch was a scary affair because you won't believe how long the queues are. So technically you spend 45 minutes of the lunch break queueing and about 15 minutes actually eating. But well, at least we have a lot of people accompanying us as we race each other to see who eats the fastest.

Went home with Jane and talked a lot on the way back! Going to meet her for breakfast tomorrow at Macs (happy yeah~) and reach NUS by 8.30am. We are going to be in different groups for the same elective tomorrow -.- But looking on the bright side I have Irene and Edmund! And she can have fun with Wee Leng. Though I think I can't bring my notebook/maths homework in and start doodling there because it's practical :( Emo much. So I better go offline soon and finish off Binomials (off with its head!) and sleep early tonight because I have to wake up at 6 (SIX! How early is that man.) tomorrow.

Hope tomorrow's session going to be fun (though I think Thursday's going to be better 'cause it's COMPUTING!). It's Chemistry and I didn't understand the guy this morning so I'm not holding out much hope :/ Good luck people.

happiness in a bottle

2010-12-06T22:04:00.003+08:00

If happiness can be bought in a bottle I'll buy one whole carton and share them around. And keep some for myself :D There's quite a bit of negative feeling everywhere (either that or it's just me) but I'm feeling really angsty and impatient these few days and people around me kept getting snapped at. So while I'm still sane and calm I'll like to extend my apologies to everyone I clawed at these few days, please excuse my weird hormones.

But I just remembered something that made me happy so I shall try to keep myself in this happy mode until Saturday :) Why Saturday? Because I'm going out with Sheryl to eat and shop (2 of my favourite things to do). Happiness~~~ (DON'T LAUGH HRMPH).

Had dinner with family at East Coast Park yesterday? Went strolling with my dad, even though he walk 1 step = I walk 1.5 steps and I was like dying and having a stitch and he walked super far somemore -.-

Slept very early and peacefully last night! And woke up just in time to go to school (and Joshua was late as usual). Going to miss the 2 guys (because they are really funny people) on Friday! But then again I have Yijia with me so no worries. Shall do up the logbook nicely for them to see when they come back~ And I have a feeling I might needa skip a bit of church camp to help Kenneth 'cause Joshua have camp on the same days as well. Can't wait for SSEF to be overrrr (or at least the research part of our project).

Hope tomorrow will be a fruitful day and I'll get some maths done~ See you guys around!

shopping list!

2010-12-02T22:38:00.004+08:00

Food

McDonalds' hotcakes
Mcflurry
Milktea
Bubbletea
Marzipan tart from Ikea
Daim cake from Ikea
Macarons
Oreo cheesecake
Taiwanese street food
Takopachi
Lime/orange sorbet
Swensens ice cream
Sushi

Clothes/Accessories

New Look heels #1
New Look heels #2
New Look heels #3
Cotton on clothes (cannot find suitable picture as example so uhm... nevermind).
Montip pencil case
Montip hairband
The Face Shop nail polish
Diva earstuds
... and a lot more actually :(

Okay I'm really head over heels (pun intended) over those shoes (L) Shall wait for bursary money next Jan and buy them before CNY! You think they'll have my size? :/

fun day with jane!

2010-12-02T20:29:00.002+08:00

Ahaha I had a really super fun day today! (I hope you guys are having just as much fun as me too.) Woke up at 6.30am to prepare for school and met Yijia to go together. Talked about lots of random stuff on the way there :) Lo and behold, we found out that there's too little cells to be plated (which majorly disrupted our schedule) so we spent the morning counting cells. I'm an expert at the haemocytometer now yeah. Yijia plated the cells onto the 12-well plates so that they will grow faster (and hopefully they are not eaten up by the bacteria or contaminants by next week). Then we went for lunch together at Kampong Arang. I found a quite nice stall that sells nasi lemak and it's pretty reasonably priced too. Didn't get to drink my soya bean milk/grass jelly because I was super full though.

And the bus came immediately when I reached the bus stop so I was happy to the max :) So I went home and showered and changed clothes and went out to meet Jane for our Ikea trip. And just so you know, we didn't go there to look at furniture (which is another one of my many weird hobbies), we went there to eat! Desserts, to be exact. I had a marzipan tart (super nice!) and Jane had a punch roll and lime jelly and we shared the Daim cake and dark chocolate cake. THE DAIM CAKE IS SUPER NICE TOO. But if you don't really like sweet stuff you should share it with someone because it gets kind of sickly after a while (so take bigger bites). And the dark chocolate cake tastes super bitter and we were feeling so stuffed that I had to force myself to finish it. But it only tastes bitter because everything else was so sweet in comparison so if you don't like sweet stuff you should totally buy this! And Jane, if you're reading this, LET'S GO BACK TO EAT THE MARZIPAN TART AGAIN BECAUSE I'M TOTALLY ON THIS MARZIPAN HIGH NOWWW.

We wanted to go back Tampines for milk tea and sitting down to chat but we spent too much time at Ikea looking at all the pretty Christmas stuff. We bought christmas cards! 8 for $2.90, which is pretty reasonable because the cards are really pretty! There's a lot of nice boxes there too, but it's kind of expensive especially when we don't even know what we want to put inside -.- And they are selling very pretty ribbons and paper bags and tags and wrapping paper too! I was tempted to buy the plain brown wrapping paper (keep your comments to yourself if you think it's ugly) but I don't have anything to wrap so yeah, no point killing all the trees for nothing.

We went to Giant after that to get Jane's FBTs! I chose the colours muahaha (because they don't have the colour she wanted in curve cut). Even though if it's me I'll just buy black straight cut, no questions asked. And it was raining super heavily so we were just sitting at the shuttle bus stop talking.

We went to T1 and look at Jane's bag in Click (which is super expensive by the way) and we saw some clutch that's pretty nice and I think she's going to get her mum to look at it someday (which I approve of!). But yeah things in Click is very nice but kind of expensive (though I don't really get it), though the clutch is okay :) Then we went to New Look and tried on all the shoes we liked there. Currently there's 2 pairs I really like and they have it in size 36 (even though I wear 35 but I highly doubt they have that size, please please please tell me I'm wrong). And the pair that I loved so much was relocated and left 2 pairs on the shelf (hopefully they have stock in my size too!). Having trouble deciding which pair to buy now. Feel like buying all of them at one go :/ Then we went to Cotton On in Tampines Mall and ALL THE STUFF WE LIKED WERE GONE. They changed all the stuff on display and my pretty dresses were gone too! -devastated mode- Oh well at least I won't have to worry about wanting to buy stuff from there (because I didn't have time to look properly and there was so many people there). So I shall focus on buying my pair of lovely heels asap!

I'm excited about the Malaysia trip because we'll be shopping for CNY clothes!! Shall buy something I really really super duper love (must consider a bit more this time) and not waste money. Lol.

By the way, I braved the rain on my way home! Because I didn't bring an umbrella and it looks like it'll be raining forever and it was already 6+ so I walked in the rain for ONCE in my life. Even though I didn't enjoy it because I was tired and my hair was seriously screwed. But I'll try harder next time!

And I think I'm going to Montip's to buy all my hair accessories next time! And my new pencil case next year! Excited much :D

remember, you are not alone

2010-11-30T21:05:00.002+08:00

Images from revolvers@tumblr.

I shall write a short post today (and I can hear the obvious sighs of relief from my loyal readers, oh yeah). That's because I'm extremely drained and have aching wrists and cramping fingers (sound terrible doesn't it?).

Had a full day of lab today and did ELISA for the first time, which is pretty cool! Though we got the cramping fingers part from pipetting 40 wells one by one for like about 20 times :/ And the extremely drained part came from standing in the lab for hours thinking about things like volume and concentration. And the aching wrists came from trying to rush out GP homework before I come online (to meet for the abstract writing but both of my dear groupmates are currently missing). I am proud to announce that I finished 1/5 of part I of the GP package! (Which is to do question analysis. Which requires looking through because I didn't really use my brain to think through it.)

So that was my day. Tiring but productive. Which is how I like it :) Tomorrow's going to be another fun day with GP and maths homework. Hopefully I hit my target of 2 compres, 2 maths revision topics and 2 pages of vocab. Then I will buy something nice to eat (haha glutton much) some day, like a donut or Ikea cakes or something. And grow fat and insulate myself during this monsoon season. Oh yeah.

like a butterfly you fluttered by

2010-11-29T18:01:00.003+08:00

Images from revolvers@tumblr.

I am boiling and fuming and steaming at my computer. Funny how all the expressions to describe anger sounds like hot water. Which is a really random but pretty true observation. And if you're wondering why, you have never met a female computer with messed up electronic hormones. No, I am definitely not mad. Just like how almost all things on earth have male and female versions, computers have distinct hormones that classify them into 2 broad categories. It's pretty easy to tell what gender your computer belongs to if you study their behaviours long enough. If you have a computer that has moodswings (behaviours include random hanging, sudden blackouts, general unresponsiveness) on a roughly per month basis, your computer is definitely female. If you have a computer that tends to be quite laggy but still perform well overall, it is a male. I know the second point doesn't seem so clear so I'll explain it to you: they don't have hormones to interrupt their daily workings, but they are a little slow on the whole. However, if your computer belongs to the total elite category that doesn't fall clearly into male or female, I believe your computer is having one of those chromosomal disorders and thus have no gender (lucky you).

So, if you think this is a post complaining about computers, you are quite wrong. I do have things more interesting to talk about than me less-than-competent desktop you know.

Let's talk about my day (right!). Basically, I'm cruelly woken up by my ever faithful alarm at 6.30 in the morning. Who needs that? But that's not all. The joys of realising there's actually nothing to do when you reached school because someone's not free and you spent 2 hours in the lab playing sudoku is wonderful (sarcasm intended, in case you don't catch it. And if you are one of the ones that didn't catch it, I am quite sure you are male). Oh and the fact that our abstract that is due in 2 days' time is totally utterly destroyed? Because apparently it sounded more like a GP essay than a scientific abstract? Brilliant. And as I happened to know first hand, the writer scored a mere E for her recent GP promotional examinations.

You might have thought that my day is pretty bad considering how it's the holidays (Exactly. Ever heard of holidays, anyone?). But oh no. Because after lunch we went to my aunt's house to visit her and you know, talk to her but because my Hokkien is as bad as her English, so to say, plus I don't have a real grasp of our family tree (oh yeah don't I sound like some estranged kid or something), I can't figure out what's she is saying for like, 60% of the time. And 10% of the time she is trying to lecture (or in milder terms, tell) me why I shouldn't get an oven. Honestly! I was so looking forward to getting an oven but as she puts it, why spend a few hundred dollars on something you are going to use for only a few times? Plus you're not going to expand it into a business and buying food back is always better because they are more skilled anyway. So me being me, tried to take it as gracefully as possible while focusing on my rather difficult sudoku game because hey, my brain isn't working at full blast 100% of the time alright. So I was still feeling rather indignant and my next best alternative is to just nod as she speaks and look at my phone.

And when I got home, I just collapsed on my bed for like 3 hours or so and woke up to shower. Which is when the logic of not-buying-an-oven kicks in and I felt a little better. And so I decided if I were to ever play with desserts, I will buy ice cream. Ice cream and oat cookies with strawberries or raisins or mangoes. Which tastes better than cakes and cookies anyway. Truth be told, I don't really like cakes and cookies, I just like to make them -.- Which is very well for Chinese New Year but not so much for the rest.

Dinner was porridge which is a nice change as well (and my dad agreed). Plus it's easier to wash up because you don't have to scrub the bowls really hard to get the rice out. Though I am certainly not going to delve into the 101 things to do when you are washing dishes because that will take forever.

So basically, it has been a long and exhaustive day and I am trying to get over my indignation/madness today. I have even planned out my remaining few hours of the day:

- play the piano
- watch tv
- do homework
- sleep and mentally prepare myself for another day of lab tomorrow.

Oh yeah I feel like a new person now. WHICH REMINDS ME THAT I HAVE NOT DONE MY REFLECTIONS FOR THE YEAR YET. Well, there's lots of time tomorrow I guess. Let's hope it will be a more productive day than today (which shouldn't be too hard right?).

And oh in case you weren't on Facebook, I discovered that someone tried to search for my blog on Google with the keywords 'how far is imagination valued in your society gp'. Though I highly doubt my blog provided any answers but I hope it was certainly entertaining enough for that whoever it is.

maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed

2010-11-28T15:25:00.003+08:00

Images from poignant@tumblr.

Hi I'm back! I didn't blog yesterday 'cause it was a real mundane day whereby I spent my time on attempting GP homework, playing the piano and wasting my life in front of the TV. I think I watched a grand total of 3.5 hours worth of TV yesterday. Oh dear :(

Today was a much better day as compared to yesterday. At least I managed to drag myself out of bed (after hearing my mom's shriek about how late it was) and got dressed pretty quickly. I think I didn't play very well during service today because my fingers were freezing :/ Hope things get better next week because I'm going to tank the whole long service. But I'm sure things will go out well because God will bless me! And the piano of course.

Went to NEX with the class for our class outing today! Attendance was super fail (which seems to happen whenever we want to go out haha) but it's alright because we still had fun. Experiencing Kenneth's driving skills is really an eye opener, not only because he sounds like my dad when he's driving (with all the random comments and all), but because he's only 2 years older than me and he drives a manual car! :O And hearing about Yiwei and Debra's experiences with driving tests make me feel a little ambivalent about my own driving experience in the future. I'm still hoping to learn how to drive a manual car because it seems more useful (albeit challenging).

Our lesson today was to review the year and plan for next year, which I intend to spend some time doing today along with my Maths and GP homework. Plus my dad's home today so dinner will be a lavish affair (as compared to the rest of the week anyway). I'm crossing my fingers that I will be able to finish all I need to do today because there's a high tendency for me to get distracted easily (like that TV outside now).

But anyway, it was really nice to listen and to share about our reflections about the year. And as Debra said, which I summarised, people today are having more and more trouble with reflecting on things. Like when blogs first came out, blog posts were just replicas of GP essay (or at least the length seem to follow that of an essay), but with Tweeter and Facebook today it seems like you can only squeeze in that 300 characters in one message. Any longer and people will have a tendency to skip through it. Plus people used to have handwritten diaries, which can be very useful when you read back and see how much you've grown (or so Debra says because I don't keep a handwritten diary. Imagine how much time I would have left for my homework if I were to write mini essays everyday). And with the whole exposing-yourself-on-the-Internet issue, I guess I would feel a little uncomfortable with sharing my personal thoughts and experiences (which I don't share with simply anyone) online. So I think one of the things I will need to put in place next year is a diary. A diary written in whatever way I like, be it in list form or drawings or random doodles and song lyrics. Because I figured, if I need to record a year of my life, next year will definitely be one of the more memorable ones. Besides the fact that I'm 18 and need to take 'A' levels, I think a lot of things are going to change, in terms of relationships and spiritual growth and how I spend my time. Plus it's nice to see how I have changed as an individual (hopefully more mature in some ways) as compared to maybe just, 2 years ago. As people have put it, teenage years are the years in which you change like a chameleon. Any earlier or later, you will be like a plateau on your personal growth curve.

So putting the serious stuff aside, Debra treated us to Starbucks today! Which is my first Christmas gift of the year (that's what she said) and I derived great satisfaction from it. I had a caramel frappucino, and considering how I don't drink coffee normally, I have a feeling all the caffeine in there just went to my head. Lunch was wanton noodles which is a nice change from the normal food we have. And then it was choir! I think I've never enjoyed singing so much because today we sang a lot of hymmish sounding songs, and it really brings out the voices of various parts (which is really cool, especially if you're part of it). And I think partly because Christmas is coming, which is why all the music sounds so different from what we used to sing (which are a little more towards the pop genre). Either I'm getting old or I'm gaining awareness of my surroundings, because I feel like singing these traditional songs really brings me back to the older times. So if you think only reading can bring you to a different scene, try singing. And by older times I don't mean the tacky undeveloped kind of old. What I felt was more of like historical European times with the cobbled roads and quaint little shops (this is really a test of my very limited vocabulary I must say). Which translates into one word that belongs to the modern generation: cool.

So then my dad sent me back and now I'm stuck in front of the computer reflecting on my day alone, and I realised there's actually a lot you can think about just by one small incident alone. Which brings us to the point that the mind is actually vast and without boundaries. And therefore I would say that there is no boring people in this world, only people who limit their boundaries to what they can think about. Because hey, everybody has their own mind right? Even though the mind by itself is empty, once you gave it an idea, an inspiration, it can generate ideas and explore things that nobody can think about. That is why having an imagination is important (just like that GP question in the holiday package we have). But I am sure you can't use that as a point to prove that society values imagination (the question is 'How much does your society value imagination?' or something like that) right? Sometimes it just seems like personal opinions don't matter much after all.

I am going to join my mom and my sister in watching tv for an hour before going out for dinner. And when I'm back, I will finish just one question of that GP package and do something about my maths package (now that my GC's back!) and THEN reflect on my year/plan for the year ahead.

Now that I'm filled with the power of reflection, let's hope that tomorrow will be a good and productive day at the lab (even if we were to only collect cells and there's nothing much to do after that).

And if you managed to read through all of this, good for you, because I spent approximately 40 minutes typing this.

don't even know what we're fighting for

2010-11-26T20:20:00.002+08:00

I think I'm really super duper hopeless now :( Howwwwww.

Plus I have maths and gp homework on top of everything else :/ Emo ttm.
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Image from poignant@tumblr.

Okay, scrape all the above. I'm craving for something to eat now. But it's already 10.15 and you know what they say about eating at night.

But anyway, I had a pretty great day despite the whole not-doing-homework-so-feel-guilty-now thing. Which I fully intend to make up tomorrow. Maybe by doing Econs mindmap and look at the GP homework.

Okay I just did and it's 54 pages -.- Shall print tomorrow I guess. At least it looks doable. Please pray hard that I can score an A next year! By Common Tests because I need to apply for scholarships :( Oh man.

Anyway, my mom brought me and my sister to Ikea for breakfast! First time going there to eat (though I've been there plenty of times to look at furniture. Don't ask why when it's not like I need new furniture at home.) and it's pretty cool. Nice environment and all. But the food isn't really that nice. Though maybe it's just the breakfast menu haha. I had some scrambled egg thing and an apple cinamon pie which isn't really nice early in the morning. I'm determined to try out the cakes though! My sister had pancakes which isn't nice as well, and my mom had a tuna croissant which she seemed to enjoy haha.

Walked around Ikea, Courts and Giant for like 3 hours straight! And my mom wanted to buy an oven so I'm super duper excited! But we didn't 'cause she wants to check out the one in Best. Though we did buy a pillow for my dad and another of those foldable mattress for when my relatives stay over. And bought drinks and korean instant noodles from Giant which weighs a ton, I assure you. But I would say that carrying my ice lemon green tea home is totally worth it haha.

Came back and cooked the noodles immediately (some cheese and kimchi flavoured noodles which is very very spicy) and went out. And spent the next 3 hours laughing nonstop (thanks Jane for your highly amusing texts).

Went back and had dinner with my dad! And okay he gave us our allowances because me and my sister were comparing who got lesser money left. I got $9.50, she got $6. Which we have been emphasizing on close to a whole week. So now that I'm $110 richer I am going to start saving up for something nice if I finish my homework. Gonna work hard from tomorrow onwards!

Now I'm trying to figure out how to install Messenger 2011 because the previous version is whacked up. And I can't stand looking at the ugly font any longer. But apparently I need to download some service pack thing and the only way to do that is to use Windows Update (which didn't help at all). And it's taking forever because it's still updating and then I have to install service pack 2 and some platform thing before I can install Messenger. So I'm chatting with Jane on Facebook now. Sigh :(

Anyway, my mom said there's a new mall at Serangoon so she's going to bring us and my dad there on Sunday. Excited to the max!

Also, I was organising my wardrobe just now and found this super long skirt my sister bought but never wore before and then she hated it and passed it to me. And obviously it looked even longer on me (like just a little below knee length, how weird is that). But brilliant me, I found a coral pink spaghetti top (remnant of some 2-piece top I had but I don't know where the outer layer went) which I matched with some vest looking thing and it goes very well with my hair down or with a high ponytail. Which is what I'm intending to wear this Sunday, else I have the feeling I'll never take that skirt out again. And I tried on this brown dress with colourful polka dots which I bought from Thailand but refused to wear because all my fats would show. I found a way to get a belt over it and scrunch it up a little on top (hello, it's freesize, which happened to be a little smaller and taller than me. Are you sure girls over there have such great figure to fit into that?) and I'd look somewhat normal. So I'm excited! Really really excited.

And my sister was organising the storeroom (which we helped afterwards) and she found all these cd covers with their cds taken out (to put into this cd wallet so it's easier for us to listen to). It's classical cd so the cover's kinda cool and pretty too. They wanted to throw them away but I put them under my possession as some kind of birthday cards for people. It looks cool okay.

Time to restart the computer for updates -roll eyes-

music starts playing like the end of a sad movie

2010-11-23T21:31:00.004+08:00

Images from poignant@tumblr.

I figured it's high time we need something to soothe our eyes, and since I'm using my desktop with my collection of lovely tumblr pictures, we shall enjoy the nice pictures together.

Anyway I had a good day today! Even though I woke up later than expected (9+am). And had to sweep the floor and everything. But I watched snippets of Harry Potter this morning and read a book and finished up the part on PES on my econs mindmap. I skipped XED and YED by the way :/ Joined my mom and sis at NYDC to have lunch! Had Hawaiian pizza and tried their oreo cheesecake and the big 'o' cheesecake. Even though I do take sips of water in between bites but still, it's really super thick and scary.

Met Jane after that and had KFC for her lunch (I ate too oh dear me). Sat there and talked at length! Then we went to Tampines Mall and headed into Cotton On. So many nice clothes there! I regretted buying the black and olive green skirts because the skirts on sale now are longer and nicer, and they are the same price -.- Saw a lot of summer dresses too! But considering how my total assets=$17.90, I don't foresee any clothing shopping just yet. You think it's possible to request that as my birthday present? Even though my mom is going on forever about 'The Importance of Saving Money', plus we're going Malaysia in December. She'll probably buy me some clothes for Chinese New Year over there and tell me that's my birthday present. Oh well.

We then went into Isetan and Jane saw the most awesome thing (or so she thinks) in her life. A white wallet with pink polka dots and shiny pink material inside. MY GOODNESS. It costs $19.90, which is like 2/5 of that big Rilakkuma she wants to buy from More Than Words. $19.90 can buy her the head of Rilakkuma already.

Anyway after all the walking we decided to head over to Manpuku to sit down and eat ice cream. And to look through all the cookbooks we brought along. Jane had black honey sundae and I had matcha sundae (super bitter zomgzx). It was 1-for-1 so it's quite alright :D And we just sat there and chatted for like... 2 hours+? Which is really fun 'cause we just talked about everything and it's extremely peaceful to sit under the (fake) sakura trees with big glass windows around.

Then we went to More Than Words and she bought a schedule book that's black outside but guess what, it's pink and white inside (no surprise there). And then we walked over to Century Square and after much deliberation, I bought a letter set with 24 envelopes inside (so I can write Christmas letters to 24 people at least) which costs $6.50. After calculation, it's ~27cents per letter not inclusive of stamps. So there you go.

I will write in my bestest handwriting so as to not waste my money and ruin the nice paper :( Plus I haven't done any school work and I'm feeling guilty to the max now because I'm going overseas for a week + lab sessions which takes up the entire day so I'm left with like 2 weeks to finish studying everything + DO MY HOMEWORK.

Goodness me :(

And as 连老师 likes to say, 一心不能二用. Since it's too late for me to start work, I shall play till 11, sleep till 7, shower and tie my hair and everything till 7.45, finish up XED and YED on my econs mindmap till 8.30, and reach school at like 10. Either that or I'll just reach school after lunch :(

Planning is a distressing event indeed.

we'll share our secret worlds

2010-11-20T20:27:00.002+08:00

So today was Science Society CIP and I was really looking forward to it because I get to play with cornstarch while the rest plays with... nothing? Haha just kidding but honestly, I think cornstarch is a million times more fun than oil and vinegar, fruits and sweet drinks, water and soap. Here's just some pictures of how a cornstarch mixture would look like (ours is hot pink because we added red food colour - my fingernails are permanently red now).

So basically this is what it looks like. A little gooey and sticky, like between liquid and non-liquid. Now I shall give you all a little science lesson (oh right). But honestly, this is the first time I heard the term non-Newtonian liquid too. It's just something that can change its state base on pressure and frequency, in other words, something other than temperature. Like you don't see water turning solid just by hitting hard on it do you? And you don't see ice melt just by laying it on your hand yeah? So that's the basic idea.

I had a fun time mixing the cornstarch and water because you have to make sure it's nicely gooey, not too watery else water will splash when you hit hard on it. But you don't want a real hard mixture else all those little kids will get sore fingers (like me) the next day.

Even though our station was really short because all we did was to give them a short lesson and then have 2 games which last for 1 minute each, I guess the kids enjoyed it because they were all a little surprised by the cornstarch mixture. Though they did make a mess of the place and we had a hard time cleaning up despite telling them not to drip it all over the floor.

Was so tired when I reached home that all I did was to eat dinner and shower. Though I did try the guava and sour plum sorbet we bought yesterday. It was good :) And I finished up the curry flavoured cornstik we bought that day because nobody wants to eat it.

And I only managed to watch/listen to Jordin Sparks sing Battlefield after listening to Jake Bruene's cover for months. Though the original version is really good! And the MV is good too.

I love treating my ears to good music :)

makes me wonder

2010-11-19T22:00:00.002+08:00

I am completely besotted with Adam Levine (goes into fangirl mode).

How can you not go crazy over a cute guy with a good voice!

And Adam Young too... Owl City + Sky Sailing = Blissfulness.

I think people named Adam have good voices :)

Just want to show you guys a really nice music video + good song.

Excited for CIP tomorrow! Gonna have lots of fun playing with cornstarch and little kids!

By the way, we went to the Expo food fair just now and bought some stuff... I am so going to grow fat!
- Jelly
- Mochi
- Ice cream
- Chocolate
- Japanese lemon chicken (and those along the line)
- Fruit and vegetable juice

Really scary to the max. Anyway the fruit and vegetable juice is really good! You can't taste the vegetable part at all... And it was 3 cartons for $3.20! I think it's the best deal we made today :)

Was having mixed emotions just now. Like when I went around stretching and enjoying the cool air I realised it's been a long time since I let myself properly relax and treat myself to a good life. By which I don't mean food or anything (because good food tends to get a little overloaded and then you stop appreciating them). I mean enjoying what I have and feeling really good and healthy about myself.

Which is why I am going to bring back some of my lost routine, which includes daily stretches, quiet time, sipping green tea, writing in good handwriting, playing with my hair, drinking lots of water, eating fruits, sleeping early, practice smiling, do some reflection and take random showers.

In some ways I think the best time I had was during the holidays last year, since I get to do a lot of cool stuff, like stitching books, learning new hairdos, walking around malls, dressing up and going out. Seems forever since I had such a life, and it's so impractical to expect it for this holidays. So I shall just make do with what I have and work hard for these 2 months to give myself a sense of achievement. Hopefully I can still gain something and not let this year be a waste.

But here comes the irony: I am going to continue playing Bejeweled. Lol.

harry potter and the deathly hallows

2010-11-18T17:58:00.003+08:00

The movie was awesome to the max. Though it's a little disappointing that it's just half the book, but nevertheless a good movie. Won't be giving any spoilers, just to let you guys know that it's really worth watching!

Though you shouldn't go for the popcorn combo just because they are giving out free wands, it's totally not worth it.

And just for some amusement if you haven't seen this yet... Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Literal Trailer (Parody).

And I bought Toast Box Yoghurt Drinks since there's 1-for-1 drinks at Tampines 1 today. Got the strawberry flavour for my sister and lychee flavour for myself :) Tastes a little weird but the lychee is good. Really.

Hope you like the new blog layout!
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Oh yeah I forgot to blog about yesterday.

Went shopping at Tampines Mall with my mom yesterday morning and she was talking about how my dad needs a new blanket because his is getting torn and tattered (don't ask). So we saw Isetan (?) having sale at the huge area in the first floor so we went to take a look. They were selling those puffy soft blankets and a set of matching bedsheets for $29 so we bought 3 at a go (I think my mom's saving them for Chinese New Year next year). Mine's brown with colourful stripes, which doesn't sound very appealing but trust me, it's really pretty. My sister's light green with artistic circles and something else and my dad's stripes of varying shades of green and white.

Then we went to NTUC to get some grocery shopping done and ended up buying lots of snacks and cookies (I am going to exercise more this holidays, really). Shall eat in moderation though! We then had a competition to see who reached home first (and I won because my mom didn't want to take the short cut since it's too hot).

So we had lunch and then headed over to my piano teacher's house. Her family is really very nice! I played Yiruma's Kiss The Rain which wasn't too bad, thankfully. Her new piano is very nice to play with too. Saw Megan then and caught up with her, but she had to leave earlier because they were having guests over. It's nice to know there's still people I can talk to after no contact for years. And it's also kind of nice to know Singapore is so small to have common friends everywhere. My piano teacher's husband is a real good cook too, so we had good food last night! I was kind of afraid it would be super awkward because it's not like I know anybody that well there but it turned out quite alright.

And I just realised how cute the main singer of Maroon 5 is and how great Adam Young's voice is.

Shall go play Bejewelled for a while before showering and trying to play with my coloured paper.